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2009-08-17T19:31:00.007+08:00

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2009-08-16T16:19:00.001+08:00

i'm kinda ditching blogger, don't really feel like blogging here.

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2009-08-09T22:43:00.001+08:00

updated lj, check the other side. (:

2009-07-27T23:08:00.002+08:00

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2009-07-26T18:20:00.000+08:00

i learnt something interesting after i enter jc. every weekend is about printing notes! how i wish hp will have some student price for ink and paper for jc students. i was thinking if someone could offer to print all my notes for me, i don't mind paying. HAHAHA. so lazy, i know. but it's so troublesome! it's annoying when you forget to print notes, have to get them photocopied last minute. RAHHH.

another frustrating thing is that my printer screws up at times. which means, some random document will be stuck there and the rest of the documents will be queued behind. CONCLUSION: cannot print anything for that day until the document somehow disappears which i have no idea how.

i miss the textbooks and workbooks days. everything is compiled, at least you won't lose your notes and work. ): pay money once a year for it to be compiled, how nice. probably that was the rationale for catering only for primary and secondary school students? maybe...

oh wells, time flies when you're having fun. not that i've had fun during the weekends or what, just that it's more relaxed than weekdays. relaxed = can wake up later. hahaha. (: simple contentment.

2009-07-24T22:15:00.002+08:00

i'm so sorry for not updating my blog. in fact, i've been blogging over at my lj. hahaha. random right, i know. my lj is like some ranting place, ask me for the url if you want to read. (:

have yet to get back my results slip, i want to get it back but yet i don't want to get it back. curious about my overall results but worry that i flunk. mixed feelings, i don't like! i'm feeling anxious over promos already, i feel the STRESS. which i think is good, at least i'm kind of motivated to study a bit. (:

pe has been fun, exceptionally fun without someone today. :D it's super tiring to be a short defender trying to mark someone who is 1.80m. unfair please! i kept seeing the ball fly over my head but was unable to intercept at all. i think next time i should suggest to play dodgeball or floorball, or else all the tall people would always be at an advantage!

i'm having eye bags lah, sian. i usually don't have eye bags despite sleeping at about 12am one! but i guess it's a prolonged thing in jc. ): that's why it's worsening. sigh. stress = eyebags, pimples. bad bad. :O

extra chemistry tutorial in the MORNING, annoying. the only day whereby i can wake up late in the afternoon is GONE. deprived. jc life is like no life. but i'm glad i still managed to meet up with tay lieu and yuting for dinner! :D mad things happened as usual, making a mess out of every where we ate at. hohoho. that's so us. i miss cedar days, i miss seconday school! ):

anyone intend to crash cedar's national day? (: I WANT TO EXPERIENCE THE CEDAR CULTURE.

2009-07-16T22:44:00.002+08:00

finally gotten back all my mye papers, some sucked, some were surprising. ought to be thankful i guess, heard of much disastrous results compared to mine. failed gp and geography. the rest can ask me if you want to know, my results ain't that nice to flaunt. :/ if it were those glamorous kind, i would have typed everything out here. i wish!

ended school today at 1.30pm, earliest ever. :D quite happy, but it felt weird. probably i haven't been ending school so early ever since jc started. can't blame, my class is a rojak class. thankfully i don't have pe at 5pm! reached home, did many tutorials for the first time. usually my weekdays are super unproductive cos i reach home relatively late, then i would slack my entire evening awayyyy. i'd rather school start early and end early! ): what about start late and end early? HAHAHA.

my phone is seriously screwed up. damn irritated. it just restarted about 5 times today! D: i want to buy new phone soon. annoyed!

promos coming soon, pw sucks but my group members rock. what a ironical world we all live in.

2009-07-07T17:05:00.003+08:00

yikes, school has officially started. lessons resumed after the long weekend. ): jc teachers are damn efficient, they can finish marking all the exam papers within less than a week! guess they have been marking like madness for the past few days... doubt i'll ever be a teacher, i can hardly read my own handwriting! HAHAHA. try reading my scribbles, i think you'll faint.

got back maths and chemistry papers today, bad! both Es. double sian-ness. really hope i won't be forced to drop my 4 H2s. ): should i be happy or sad that i passed both subjects? apparently teachers have been saying that the cohort hasn't done well and what not. sounds more like an excuse eh? jc life is seriously hectic and the teaching pace is insane. i think my brain cells are depleting real fast. ): maybe that explains my very STM behaviour this year. hahaha.

this whole week would be getting back of exam papers and going through papers during lectures. thankfully no tutorials as yet. (: praying hard that my timetable won't suck like term 2's. at least let the last lesson end at 5pm or earlier! H2 Geography has the worst timings ever.

according to elias, you have to get 3Ss, 1U, 2Cs, 1E to "achieve" SUCCESS. what a nice way of consoling yourself. i seriously DO NOT look forward to get back GP and chinese paper. ): sigh. cannot fail!

A level chinese oral is tomorrow, today's discussion topic was weird. quite out of the world i would say. wondering what's the oral topic for tomorrow, hopefully it won't be a topic that would stun me. can't wait to get over with CHINESE! :D

2009-07-03T00:01:00.002+08:00

WHAT IS MID YEARS EXAMINATION? HAHAHA. :D i think i'm going crazy soon! stupid mye, make me stress for nothing! no wonder singaporeans are living shorter lives with lower age expectancy. end of examinations naturally comes with CELEBRATION! *pops party poppers into the air*

just finish chionging WGM on youtube between Hwangbo and Hyun Joong, damn sweet and sad at the same time! if only singapore shows were half as interesting... big fat sigh. been to taiwan, they have 100 over channels including scv that comes with their normal tv channels! unfair. :O why does singapore charge extra for that? whatever it is, youtube is a more reliable source of entertainment. HAHAHA. :D

never mind about the tv channels and shows. i have a long weekend to enjoy! school holidays from friday to monday, YAY. :D not exactly official but it just so happened to be that way. friday no more papers for me, so don't need to attend school! monday is off-in-lieu for our school's youth day. (: happy. finally i can sleep in again until afternoons, sounds like a pig i know. any idea how much you'll crave for sleep in jc? even i slept during examintions today! stupid chinese paper was 3h 15min long in ONE SEATING. how kind.

i'm so gonna splurge like mad tomorrow to destress with tard. if only things could slow down, i won't be this exhausted. school is bad for health!

2009-06-25T09:51:00.003+08:00

i'm blogging for the 2nd time this week! it's pretty shocking that i'm doing that this year. hahaha. (: just felt like it.

apparently our school is not pushing back mid-years, how great. i heard that tjc, njc and vjc has pushed back theirs. nyjc should do something seriously. 220 cases at the end of yesterday, not bad enough? rijc has extended holidays cos of one case in their school, i'm envious! >:O but it doesn't really make any difference to them, all the smart people would have finished mugging long time ago.

this world is such a frustrating world with all sorts of frustrations that are indescribable. sigh. if only every single thing could work out right... wait, that'll be heaven. impossible on earth sadly. ): okay, i'm so looking forward to rapture.

holidays suck, school suck, life sucks. screwed up life.

2009-06-23T19:03:00.002+08:00

sorry for not updating for the past i don't know how many weeks. have been chionging Boys Over Flowers on youtube and mugging of course. i'm sure you people are smart enough to know which one took up more time. (: finally finished watching! to those who don't watch, GO AND WATCH IT. hahaha. it's damn nice, but sadly, i doubt most guys know how to appreciate it. ): probably they think that watching dramas are waste of time.

try watching korean dramas and then watch channel 8 dramas, you'll get a shock of your life. up to you to decide if i'm referring to the positive or negative aspect. HAHAHA. (<- BIG hint) I WANT TO LEARN KOREAN! time flies like a bullet train, it's already june unknowingly. it feels as though orientation was not long ago and ta-da, MID-YEARS IS NEXT WEEK. hope time will continue flying until after As!! :D

life feels very unrealistic now after watching the show. hahaha. how i wish i don't have to study and have all the money in the world to live till i die. (: talking about studies makes me feel damn screwed up. have been chionging drama for the past 3 days and have yet to revise geography at all. if only i can fast forward and get pass jc... have been having second thoughts of entering jc instead of poly. :/ struggling hard to survive, probably i'm not cut out to be in jc in the first place.

finally i can come into consensus with people who anticipate rapture, life really suck. it's becoming more and more demanding than ever, especially on the younger generation. if only i live in my ancestors generation, i wouldn't even need to study! yay. best news ever.

can't moe just extend one week of holidays?! jc students need to study and mug for mid-years okay. i know it contradicts with the top part of my post. hahaha. the point is we need more time to enjoy ourselves and study! holidays just aren't holidays if you don't enjoy, might as well call it study break. i finally understand why people said that jc life is the toughest of all the studying years.

okay, i think that shall be all for my ranting and blabbering for today. thank you to all those who managed to finish reading this lengthy post, your time is deeply appreciated. (:

2009-06-05T22:56:00.003+08:00

okay. SCHOOL HOLIDAYS SUCK TTM. i prefer normal school days come to think of it. teachers really think that our holidays are free, they just spam us with extra lessons. cannot stand it. i really really miss the secondary school days holidays whereby i could go out every single day, i mean it. the only thing that i've been really thinking about is mid-years! it's haunting me every single day which is making me dread holidays even more. grrr. i think jc life is seriously pathetic lah! apart from my friends of course. if i didn't have friends, i'll most probably appeal out cos of the stress and the mountainful things to do! it's never-ending.

first week of holidays have been seriously UNPRODUCTIVE. only studied 4 chapters of chemistry and i'm already going mad. first time i'm mugging during JUNE HOLIDAYS okay! i lead a pathetic life. ): WHY MUST THIS WORLD BE ALL ABOUT STUDIES? i so hate this. sigh. stressing myself out, tiring myself out, i'm going insane.

2 videos dedicated to exco people, enjoy! (:

2009-05-29T21:43:00.002+08:00

went to school at 10.30am today, i bet you people must be thinking that i'm crazy because GP paper starts only at 2.30pm. hahaha. (: had publicity committee meeting in the morning with exco people. did something retarded after meeting, that is to go to serangoon central for lunch and take train back to lor chuan station just to try out the circle line with kelmond. mad right! but i think it's super cool and convenient. (: the train is shorter than the usual ones and the station smells like idk what, just weird. i had blocked nose but could still smell it, let you go figure what it smells like. the weather today was insane, fountain-ed like a fountain just by walking to school from lor chuan station. ny should just open another side gate at the track area right beside the station!
as mentioned above, i had GP exam today. totally screwed up the essay, couldn't even make out what i was writing. wanted to change question halfway through but can't possibly change after 1/2 an hour has passed. ): sian. comprehension was okay, managed to finish right on the dot! phew. many couldn't complete, guess i'm considered quite lucky. hopefully i'd be able to pass, that is more than 50% in my terms.
went to dentist in the evening, kinda got scolded by my dentist for not wearing retainers. gahh, i seriously deserve it man. :S thank God i don't have to make a new set, he just adjusted my current retainers with idk what machine thingy. cool though. kinda wasted 42 bucks just on consultation. mummy's kinda angry, sort of appeased her by telling her that she saved 150 plus bucks since i don't need to make a new one. what a lousy excuse. thankfully she's not exactly fuming. (: so contented! i shall be a good girl and wear retainers until my wisdom teeth pops out. there's a high chance i'd have to go for surgery to remove it, sigh. haven't been through a single surgery since i was born. praying hard that it'll grow out straight!
this holidays is so not gonna be a normal and slack one. it's more like unofficial school days. make-up tutorials as expected, exco meetings... sounds like normal school. actually i'd rather have normal school, at least i don't have to sit through one subject for 2 hours straight! the only thing i'm looking forward to is class bbq and exco outing. YAY! :D finally some day when i can go out and play the whole day. may be having indoor rock climbing with anshao people, hopefully it'll be successfully planned. (:
i really have no idea if anyone reads my blog. ): tag k! your visit and tag is deeply appreciated by Esther! (:

2009-05-23T23:11:00.002+08:00

i shall make it a point to blog at least once a week. hahaha. i'm getting super lazy to blog.
it has been a hectic week. council investiture, exco investiture, exco farewell dinner... many many things happened, too much for me to elaborate. i'm so gonna miss my seniors loads! it's not as though i'm not gonna be seeing them in school or what, but house exco without them would be so different. despite knowing that this day was gonna come sooner or later, i'm still quite sad about it. ): time spent with them was short. only from march/april to end of may? 2 months makes a huge difference! the attachment to them, the fun we all had with them during camp/meetings and more! it's all over. time flies when you're having fun, how true.
do i sound emo? hahaha. i think i do.

june holidays are nearing, have no idea how to spend it. mye is after holidays, spend the holiday studying everyone would say. sigh, i don't like that! studying the entire holiday will just make me a geek or something, and it's not as though i have that long attention span! i can't even last sitting there to study for 2 hours straight. hahaha. moreover 1 whole month! really can't afford to flunk any paper for mye, or else i'll have to say bye to my 4 H2s. ): extra lessons are already booking my holidays, what a sad jc life i lead. maths, chem... don't tell me there's more to come.

gp paper is this coming friday, fast huh. i'm not even prepared for it! not mentally prepared, plus my weird teacher hasn't returned our test which was taken damn damn damn long ago. is he intending to return us after the exam? that's kinda pointless! i have weird teachers who loves to keep out test papers for some unknown reasons. wonder what are they keeping it for.

okays, i'm quite lazy to continue. check out my fb to see photos, i don't intend to upload on my blog. (:

2009-05-14T21:39:00.002+08:00

i can't believe 2 tutorials and 1 practical was cancelled today. wonder if the teachers discussed beforehand since all the lessons were CONSECUTIVE and they happen to be the last 3 periods of the day. thus, i ended school like 4 hours earlier. (: being such an enthusiastic house elect, i joined the 12 others to support the guys vball match. hehehe.

made the right choice in going down to support such an exciting match! it was a super close fight between nyjc and vjc, went up to 5 matches. realised that morale is super important, thankfully exco people were high enough to cheer like nuts until most of our voices went hoarse. the guys' voice broke for the 2nd time. hahaha! but i'm glad they won. :D met many ex-cedarians who are currently in vjc and ajc. finals for both girls and guys team on monday, i guess it'll be super high! exco, council and entire J2 cohort will be going down to support, how cool is that! (: sounds like fun. we all get to leave class at 11am. yay. HAHAHA. just so happen to skip all the lessons that i don't like (GP LECTURE AND TUTORIAL, YAYYYYY!)

came back to school for inter-class soccer match. my class team name is... SHAOLIN BALLS! HAHAHA. the guys rock lah. i suddenly enjoy being a girl, at least you won't get rammed by the ball on purpose. i did something damn dumb, i tripped over the ball while trying to block it. hahaha! therefore, i have a bloody knee now. feel so bad towards the team for not helping but instead, got injured and made some of them worry. ): so sorry!

but all in all, i had fun despite my hoarse voice and bloody knee. (: yay! of course all these happiness rules over the damn screwed up maths lecture test. :D

2009-05-13T22:20:00.002+08:00

i'm like so freaking stressed but i can't exactly name why i'm feeling stressed.
studies?
probably because there is a maths lecture test tomorrow? maybe, lecture tests takes up quite a percentage of our promos results.
friends?
maybe, but i guess i shouldn't really worry about that now.
exco?
definitely a yes.
council invest?
oh my, i need to scream. white long sleeved shirt, stockings, court shoes by FRIDAY. damn. i only have 1 out of the 3 now btw.
my phone?
screwed up W910i. all phone users should be replaced with a new one, at least one that does not auto-restart.
soccer match?
HAHAHA. shaolin balls. what a name for our team! soccer for the win (cos i get to skip geography tutorial which apparently i didn't ask for permission of course)! there's a likelihood that he won't be able to come class, hopefully he doesn't for the happiness of our geography class.
SGC?
it's still rotting in my secondary school's general office but i'm seriously LAZY TTM to even get it despite my secondary school being 4 bus stops away only.
lack of sleep?
definitely. i'm not even sleeping 7 hours a day but surprisingly i don't have any eye bags. probably dark eye rings but not eye bags. goodie! (: something worth to be happy about.
okay, i should stop my ranting and get to sleep. i think i'm falling sick! so is twin. ): hope she'll be fine, at least until next monday. jiayou twin!

2009-05-10T16:27:00.003+08:00

it feels like i've not updated my blog for a long long time. since something significant happened, i shall be hardworking and blog a little. (:

apparently, i lost my ez-link on sunday after meeting my pw group at shuyi's place. the weird thing was the i took a bus home WITH MY EZ-LINK, but couldn't find it that night. i thought i might have dropped it on the bus or on the way home cos i didn't tap out. that was my initial thought. so, the next day, i took a bus to the interchange and asked if they received any lost ez-link or what. that horrible staff told me they didn't and even lectured us students for being so irresponsible for not tapping out. thanks ah. i merely asked her ONE question and she just rambled on and on. in hope that i can find my lost ez-link, i didn't call up the hotline to ask them to terminate my lost card.

can't rmb whether it was which day, i took a bus to amk interchange after school one day. that was the closest interchange to my place that i can replace my ez-link. when i reached there, i had a feeling that i have yet to check my house thoroughly, could have been at home or something. so i took a train home with my mum's spare adult ez-link and it costs a bomb. okay, $1.20, maybe not a bomb. but it's like approximately 3 times the normal student fare! for 3 stops only okay... that's damn ex. went home to search, but COULDN'T FIND. damn. so, i had to make another trip down to amk interchange.

the 2nd time i went there was a friday, my classmates happen to want to eat at amk subway for lunch. ticket office was open, reached my turn and realised that I COULDN'T MAKE cos i didn't bring my IC. my mum doesn't allow me to bring in fear that i will lose it, 100 bucks to make one new one okay! damn. couldn't make AGAIN, 2nd wasted trip.

yesterday, i went to amk interchange again. brought my ic, passport size photo, money, everything that they needed. when i reached there, THE TICKET OFFICE WAS CLOSED. i forgot it was vesak day, a public holiday. it felt like any ordinary saturday to me, plus i don't celebrate vesak day. told my mum about it and she said i was dumb. hahaha.

i was damn sian to the max already. 3 wasted trips just to make a damn ez-link. suay thing was the i just topped up 15 bucks. paid 15 bus trips with coins (i counted all the paper thingys). this meant that the amount of money i would waste would be: $15(0.55-0.44)+$15+$19=$35.65 JUST TO REPLACE MY LOST EZ-LINK THAT WAS GIVEN FREE.
$0.55=bus fare for students using cash
$0.44=bus fare for students using ez-link
$15=amount that i topped up on the day that i lost my card
$19=amount that i have to pay for the new card

BUT...
I FOUND IT TODAY! my ez-link was never lost. i brought it home that day, placed in on a table and somehow, it dropped into a box that was below the table. the box contained the presents for mothers' day for my church. while kaiwen was sorting out the presents in church today, she found it and returned it to me. Thank God! (: even though i made 3 wasted trips, plus a whole week of pek chek-ness, it was all worthwhile. i am sure God has His plans of everything. God really did answer my prayers, i prayed every single day just to find my ez-link. yay! Esther is a happy girl. just hope that this horrible experience of mine will encourage all of you out there to trust in Him for He has His plans for everything.

2009-04-30T20:48:00.002+08:00

sometimes i really wonder if i should even care. 1, 2, how many more to go? go ahead and do what deems fit to you, i don't care. insult me all you want, i can't be bothered. things have changed, let's just be strangers.

betrayal of trust, repeat of the past.

2009-04-22T19:35:00.006+08:00

haven't updated for a week or so, considered pretty updated to me. hahaha. use to update everyday in the past but i don't see the point, people don't have all the time in the world to read every single post. besides, it's QUALITY, not QUANTITY. (: better to post something logical rather than a post just to keep my blog updated right?

okay, this week has been relatively slack for me. not much test except for one class test. received many tests results, not sure to be happy or sad. passed all, but not up to expectations. pass as in all E and above. have been warned about expectations of taking 4 H2s already, even have to sit for chem re-test on saturday morning. i've been threatened to drop one of my H2 subject. ): if that day were to come, i will drop geography!

many things had happened, but i'm too lazy to blog about everything. lazy is one thing, the other is that my limited memory just can't recall every single detail. life in jc is really fun and complicated at the same time. but overall, i'm still enjoying it. (:

this picture is just for laughs, you'll know why after you look at my face.

is it me, or is it you?

2009-04-14T20:25:00.001+08:00

Insomnia

I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out, said that you'd had enough

Been a fool, girl I know
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you'll change your mind
Now looking back I wish I could rewind

Because I can't sleep til you're next to me
No I can't live without you no more
Oh I stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Remember telling my boys that I'd never fall in love, love, love, love
You used to think I'd never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust
And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us
But now I'm sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up

Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time (time), you'll change your mind (mind)
Now looking back I wish I could rewind

Because I can't sleep til you're next to me
No I can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh I stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah (Ah), Feels like insomnia ah ah

Ah, I just can't go to sleep
Cause it feels like I've fallen for you
It's getting way too deep
And I know that it's love because

I can't sleep til you're next to me
No I can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh I stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

2009-04-10T15:28:00.002+08:00

Esther just did something supremely dumb to the max today. i was feeling hungry even after i had my lunch, so i went to the fridge to search for food. hungry me took out 2 slices of chocolate cake and ate them. when i was about to throw the box, i spotted the expiry date and guess what? it has already expired. the cake tasted normal though. hopefully i won't die of diarrhoea this weekend cos i've got still 80+ pages of biology notes to study for the test on monday! that's all about my dumbness. hahaha. laugh all you want cos even i laughed at myself.

if only i could understand people just by one look,
life would have been much easier.

2009-04-07T18:54:00.002+08:00

i seriously think that my blog is rotting to the max. i'm so sorry for not updating at all ever since don't know how many weeks ago, have been busy and lazy. if only i could have 48 hours a day, i wouldn't mind blogging every single day!
did not attend church last sunday cos of house exco camp. i had a 3D2N camp in school! it was a really great learning experience with my fellow nominees and J2 seniors. (: i really am too lazy to go into details about what happened during camp. all in all, i love Zohan!

Zohan Zohan we so pro,
come on guys let's go go go!
maiyo maiyo maiyo,
aiyo qu gai gai oh.
ohhh~ ohhh~ scrappy ko ko ko ko!
ohhh~ ohhh~ scrappy ko ko ko ko!

this was our main cheer during the camp. hahaha. (: had severe muscleaches after the camp. elaine and i were walking weirdly. i'm sure it wasn't only us, all the exco nominees as well!
but of course, camp = no time to study. apparently, i screwed up my chemistry test which contributes 12.5% to promos. didn't have the time to study! should have studied before the camp, regret to the max now. i seriously don't know how to salvage my chemistry already. hopefully i didn't fail that badly...
hung up campaigning posters around the school today with elaine. had a whole lot of nonsensical fun while doing. (: (elaine: hopefully that exit sign doesn't fall off!)
do keep a look out for our posters a round the school! VOTE FOR PHOENIX H29! :D

2009-03-25T19:57:00.002+08:00

have been really tired these few days in school, it's not as though there was a lot of homework. maybe it's just that fast-pacing jc life that i'm experiencing that is making me feel so tired because i'm forever at the back chasing of the reality that is ahead. ): can someone please slow time down? at this rate, i think i'll flunk all the upcoming tests and promos eventually.
academics aside. had house exco meeting today, going to have exco camp soon! sounds interesting and exciting to me. (: probably it can be an escape for me from school work for the 3 days 2 nights. no idea whether that is a good or bad thing cos i have bio and chem tests in the upcoming week, and i have yet to start revising. ironical me.
stressed, tired and worried esther. what to do? i'm in a crisis.

2009-03-17T19:34:00.002+08:00

finally, the 2 days of Project Management Workshop is OVER! the real holidays are finally here. i won't say i didn't learn anything from the workshop, but i didn't learn much. it was annoyingly draggy and long! half the time when we were asked to do something, i'd be really lost. either lost or can't be bothered to do. 8am to 5pm is seriously too long, especially for someone like me with such short attention span. frankly speaking, i didn't benefit much. did you guys learn anything? drop your opinions at my tagboard. (:
we are being bombarded by tests after the holidays. boohoo. this means that our March holidays are more like a study break! ): poor jc students. somehow, i feel that i've slacked too much in sec sch which was a good thing. cos i can't afford the time to enjoy or go out anymore in jc! it's really fast-pacing and everything is happening so fast.
this week is super packed for me. tomorrow seems like my only free day out of the entire hols! poor me. ): let me share with you my programmes for this week:
monday - Project Management Workshop
tuesday - Project Management Workshop
wednesday - nothing! (:
thursday - date with heng rui min! :D
friday - MDA Workshop
saturday - Ubin Trip! :D
sunday - church
wow, busy busy busy! just wondering if i can finish all my revision and holiday homework by this week... possible, provided i mug the entire day tomorrow! hohoho. is that even possible in the first place? (: ask me tomorrow night and i'll let you know the results. HAHAHA.
okay, i should stop my boring post here. (:

do friendships exist forever? ): i miss you.

2009-03-07T20:48:00.002+08:00

i didn't really realise that i've not blogged for such a long time until people ask me to update. time really flies when you're in jc. your entire life will revolve solely around school and cca. nothing else! ):
sports carnival was supposedly today, but it was cancelled due to the bad weather. many people were dejected, but sadly, the weather is not under our control. there's not postponing intended. first event participated by the J1 house exco nominees but this had to happen. oh wells, i guess this is just something we have to learn. :/
BUT, i'm sure all the house exco people enjoyed themselves working together! though we had to run in the rain and scream and shout and whatsoever, we worked as a team! (: i really enjoyed working together with them. of course there's a price to pay for that, which is... my voice! it's breaking again. sighhh. i've been walking under the rain for numerous times this month and i think i'm falling ill! ): having an mc = not attending trainings, missing lectures! so many implications. esther doesn't want to fall sick! D: lack of sleep is making matters worse.
oh, and the photos for sports carnival is on fb. i doubt i'll be uploading much pics on my blog cos it takes a super long time. (: so be hardworking and make a trip (click) to fb if you wanna view those photos.
alrights, that's all for this post. i'm seriously too lazy to continue. (:

2009-02-27T22:15:00.002+08:00

i'm beginning to feel the stress now. chinese homework sucks big time, esp when the teacher is annoying. the more i don't feel like doing her work! :O plus her deadlines are ridiculous. imagine me having school from 7.30am to 6pm ytd, wants us to hand up 3 open-ended questions plus a summary AND to hand up an essay supposedly by today! i had training ytd after my lessons fyi. i told her that and she said she don't care. like seriously WTH. i'm so gonna pass up late for all her work. GRRR. thankfully there are people who have yet to hand up their essays today. yay. let's all get scolded tgt on monday. (: this is the class spirit!
and i'm damn stressed out as well by cca matters. sighhh. it's a long and annoying story that i don't wanna share here cos many of you will feel like killing me after i say it. HAHAHA. some of you know what i'm talking about. yes yes, i'm a super undecisive person. so to conclude, i hate making decisions! ): badminton vs house exco, i love both! but i know it's impossible to get the best of both worlds. firstly, you'll see me dying during every lecture. secondly, you'll see me spending more than 2 years in nyjc. go figure what's that.
LETHARGY IS OVERWHELMING ME. i thought i could survive with just 6 hours of sleep everyday but i guess i'm WRONG. 8 hours is still the best. :D of course many would agree the longer the better, but that's so not possible in jc! i reach home about 8+pm on training days, even later if i go out for dinner with teammates. this is just one example, there are times which are much worse.
my timetable is the most screwed up one ever. it's either we have very little breaks or we have too many breaks! ytd, our lesson started at 7.30am and our first break was only at 1pm. TORTURE! and today, we had 4 hours of break in between lessons. wow. you must be thinking that the packed days can be compensated BUT, our class is so rojak that it's so hard to accomodate everyone! thus the retarded timetable.
i guess i should stop ranting to people around me before i get them so irritated with me. HAHAHA. esp HENG RUIMIN.

I MISS YOU PEOPLE BADLY! D:

2009-02-23T22:23:00.002+08:00

official school has been a really tiring one. the pace at which the lecturers teach are insane. so much for those complains in sec sch, come to think of it, those are peanuts compared to what i'm going through now.

still in a dilemma about my cca, i'm sure only a few of you know what i'm talking about. have been praying about it but still, i'm still quite troubled about it. guess i shouldn't worry that much knowing that everything is in His hands. (:

got to know something that really pissed me off to the core just now. ask me if you want know cos i don't intend to blog about it. to that someone: i really don't know what i did, but stop spreading your one-sided opinions. i should be fine by tomorrow.

i'm having 3.5 hours of break tomorrow! i have no idea whether it's fortunate or unfortunate. hahaha. cos we have a last minute pw assignment to do which is due tmr after the break as our next pw lesson is unluckily scheduled the next day. boohoo. but thanks to the 3.5 hours of break, i guess we'll be able to utilise that break to the max doing pw.

i love my class loads! the people are fun which makes jc life much more enjoyable. though the only common periods we have are seriously limited, i'm sure we're still about to be bonded as a class and make this 2 years a memorable one. (: all the way NYJC 0903! :D

2009-02-14T01:05:00.003+08:00

the 4-days orientation ended yesterday. i am already missing it cos it consisted bulks of fun! :D i enjoyed myself very much all thanks to my OGLs and dearest classmates. they remind me of my secondary 4 class, mad but fun!

i'm not posting any pics here, check out my fb for photos. (: my posts are gonna be wordyyy, so just bear with me.

i am getting used to the nyjc lifestyle. it definitely isn't a boring school, at least for orientation that is. :D met alot of my primary school friends plus childhood friends in ny, so damn cool! haven't seen them in ages and there they are in my school. so excited to see them again. but guys really do change alot in terms of appearance. can't recognise the guys much cos they don't resemble their child-like look! girls look more or less the same. (:

lessons are starting officially next week. big fat SIGH. i wonder how stressful it'll be... sounds really bad according to those who have been through it. eeeek! really praying hard for miracles to happen such that these 2 years will pass in a blink!

tired now, update another time. ciaos! (:

2009-02-06T21:27:00.002+08:00

trying really hard to adapt to jc life now. it doesn't suck, but neither does it rock. having lessons in the form of lectures are damn distracting. people can be talking everywhere around you! but sometimes i'm those people as well, can't be helped! it's impossible to pay full attention during all the lectures okay...

today's maths lecture was insane. i couldn't even understand the basic concepts of binomial theorem! i need tuition desperately, or else i'll die a horrible death for MYE. sighhh. come to think of it, promos sounds damn difficult now. ):

printing of lectures notes drives me crazy! the amount that my school wants us to print is madness. i printed 41 pages of bio notes today using my house printer! the black ink dropped almost a quarter, colour diagrams are almost on every page, ahh! ALOT OF INK! :S

my subject combi is BCMG, 4 H2s. i wonder if i'll survive esp when i have to take additional chinese. ): pray for me people! i know it's a super kiasu thing to take 4 H2s but it's just a gurantee for As just in case i happen to flunk one of my 3 H2s.

orientation is starting next week! can't wait to see who are my new classmates. hopefully they are nice people. :D alrights, that's all for now. i guess i'll blog again after orientation.

2009-02-02T22:54:00.001+08:00

school sucks BIG time. i'm so NOT enjoying myself.

2009-02-01T22:21:00.002+08:00

tomorrow marks the start of a whole new jc life. i'm seriously dreading it to the core cos of a few reasons. firstly, nyjc is not my first choice, so i'm not exactly looking forward to that orientation. secondly, currently i still have no idea if i have any friends being posted there! who knows i may be the only person from cedar there. that'll be BAD. hate the feeling of a whole new environment and having to make new friends all over again, i just don't enjoy that feeling. it's not that i don't enjoy making more friends, that's different.

gotta wake up darn early again, which is so sucky. i'm so gonna miss my dearest school holidays whereby i can get up at like 1pm without being scolded. hehehe. :D call me lazy if you want, i think sleeping is more important than those comments.

i've gotta remove my manicure as well! oh man. D: thankfully i don't have to remove my pedicure. hohoho. at least something worth celebrating. or else it'll be such a waste! it's not even damaged the slightest bit. see, i'm a careful person. (:

mugging days are nearing, esther is dreading. a large volume of brain cells is gonna be killed again. i heard that brain cells do not reproduce, what a sad thing to hear. having to study again after 3 months of brainless holidays? HOW TO! my brain is damn freaking rusty, i guess i'll take quite some time to adapt to those studying days...

i'm already missing my sec school clique! although they aren't as havoc as anshao people, but they certainly left a fun and mad memory of my secondary school days. that's like the only thing i can look back to for my secondary school years, nothing more. how sad.

alright, i'll have to sleep early starting from tonight. damn. i'll miss those wee hours / late night msn chats. ):

2009-01-26T22:04:00.002+08:00

this year's cny seems to arrive a little too early. plus the bad recession means a reduction in angbao money! kids like us on have that extra income every year cos schooling doesn't allot us to take up part time jobs. therefore, married adults should be more generous and give more blessings to all the lovely kids like us. :D

the early cny also means that i do not enjoy 2 extra public hols when school reopens. cny falls right during my hols which is just like any other hols with extra programme that's all. sad. D:

posting results for O levels students will be out this friday. i really am anxious to find out which school would i be posted to. praying hard that they'll dump me in ajc! then it'll save me the trouble of going over to their school to appeal. that'll be so much extra trouble for a lazy person like me! please keep me in your prayers, tyty.

i'm so gonna miss my school holidays although i've been complaining much about how boring it is. wonder how fast can i adapt to the schooling days of getting up at 6am... no more playing esther, back to serious work.

starting school is a good thing, so i won't have to come up with things to do just to idle my hols away. 7 more days to start of school and stress! :O

2009-01-24T22:25:00.001+08:00

Your Friendship Style is Empathetic

You deeply care about each person you're friends with. For you, friendship is all about the personal connection.

You tend to know everything about your friends' lives... and they know everything about yours. Your friends are your confidants.

You are always there for your friends. You celebrate their successes and support them in their times of need.

You are as loyal as they come. And you expect the same loyalty and understanding from your friends in return.

You and another Empathetic Friend: Have a amazing friendship, when it works. You care for each other deeply, but you often end up with hurt feelings and drama.

You and a Gregarious Friend: May have a bit of a one sided friendship. You adore your Social Friend, but you sometimes feel a bit neglected.

You and an Independent Friend: Struggle a bit. You are very interested in your Independent Friend's life, but your friend often needs more space.

You and a Philosophical Friend: Respect one another. You love to learn about your Philosophical Friend's brilliant ideas.

What's Your Friendship Style?

You Are an Impulse Shopper

When you go shopping, you have no set strategy. You just browse until something catches your eye.

You like sales, but you mostly like them because they're an excuse to shop.

Of all the types, you are the most likely to be a shopaholic. You can't stop shopping!

You're not the kind of person who makes a list or plans what to buy. So sometimes you end up with too much stuff.

What Kind of Shopper Are You?

2009-01-16T21:28:00.002+08:00

will i end up like this in the near future? probably i should just enjoy my school holidays before those mugging days are near.

2009-01-15T23:07:00.003+08:00

i just posted my JAE form, shall share with you guys so that you people can pray for me! :D
1st choice: AJC (sci)
2nd choice: NYJC (sci)
3rd choice: SAJC (sci)
4th choice: CJC (sci)
you don't have to know the rest, it's pretty crappy cos we have a max of 12 choices to fill up! didn't fill up all of course, thinking about what to fill in is such a chore! ultimately, you'll start filling up rubbish. these 4 choices are the more serious ones i'm considering. so do pray for me k! my aim is to get in ajc (sci), that's why i put it as my first choice. but as you can see from my previous post, i'm one point short to enter science stream! i'm pretty worried. :/

got up at 5.50am to get to the airport at 7.30am to send sean tan off. thought i was late but others were as late. kinda miss his nonsensical presence and ridiculous talks. hope he'll be back soon to join ABC! :D headed to popeyes for brunch, their mash potato rocks. i'm not really a fan of mashed potato, so for me to say that it's good, it should be good. (:

went cck to prawn with a few anshao people. caught a lot more than expected. i caught the largest prawn among us! quite tyco, caught it by it's pincer. thankfully the uncle there was nice enough to teach us how to prawn. i bet the other prawning places won't even bother cos it's not a very wise thing to do. but i guess that's partially due to the fact that he's not the boss. so i suppose his boss' profit doesn't determine his pay. 7 people caught a total of 69 prawns! everyone ate about 10 on the average for dinner. mad prawn feast.

YONG♥ : i've updated for your sake. touched? :D you better be. hehehe.

2009-01-13T00:21:00.002+08:00

RESULTS DAY! i suppose many of you are anticipating for me to blog about my results. so sorry for the slipshot smses today, too lazy to reply long msgs plus i wasn't exactly in a good mood.

i never imagined that our batch could do so well! our overall average was 9.07. pretty insane i would say. this means that majority of the sec 4 pupils in year 2008 scored around 9 for L1R5! at first when i heard of it, i thought it was merely a rumour cos it sounds pretty impossible. and 98.9% is eligible for JC admission! mad not? i just realised how mad my school is academically. only 3 scored above 20 for L1R5.

and i can't believe that the news didn't show the slightest bit about our school! unfair. our overall average was much much higher than cat high and they got all the limelight tgt with st nicks. we should at least get like 10s on the news okay! the cameraman even came over to interview our top students. hmphhh. why wasn't it shown!

went shopping after getting back our results. starting splurging cos i wasn't exactly happy. hahaha. glad that my mum said i could claim. phew! or else i'd be broke. thanks mummy! (:

notice that i haven't blogged about my results? the whole chunk above is just to digress. i scored 10 for L1R5 and 8 for L1R4. not exactly happy with it cos... I FAILED THE DAMN HMT! E8 okay. like wth. 20 people failed and i'm so lucky to be one of them. great. i only have 1 pathetic bonus point now. but i ought to be content cos i prayed to get 9 and i really did obtain 9 points after minusing! thank God for that. however, i'm unable to enter ajc cos i'm short of one stupid point. crap! should have dropped hmt previously to retake chinese, waste of my money!

aiming for nyjc now cos it's the next nearest and not so bad jc. wonder how it'll be like... going for the open house tmr, hope it'll be a good one! (: pray for my people. thanks loads!

2009-01-11T21:23:00.003+08:00

i've always thought that i can welcome the BIG DAY with open arms but i guess i'm WRONG. feeling kinda weird now, mixed feelings. sigh. does everyone go through this before they receive their Os results? tag at my board to let me know, so that i can feel more relieved (if that helps). aiming for ajc, not anything higher cos i prolly can't score any better than that. not that i don't have confidence, but i know my limits. don't say i'm smart, i can't possibly be smart overnight and be a 6 pointer. call me or sms me if you wanna know my results, don't ask me to rmb to sms you or call you cos i'll prolly miss one or two of you out.

tmr's gonna be the last day i'm wearing the blue blouse and grey skirt uniform. gonna miss it a little cos it's pretty unique. never found it special until graduation day last year. HAHAHA. many had been saying how pretty the cedar uniform is but this is how unappreciative i am of my school u. you'll understand if you were in my shoes. you wear it like every school day, it's just like any other uniforms!

went to have lunch at fish&co. with sarah sean and yongxin. they tried playing bridge even though i dissuaded them to. they insisted that we won't be stopped since we're patronising them and i bet with them that we'll be stopped even before we finish a game. and guess what? one of their people came over when we only started bidding and stopped us. knew it. i can foresee the future! seafood platter for 2 rocks big time. of course it has to be delicious, it's 40 bucks. didn't take photos, so busy eating such delicacies.

shopped around orchard with yongxin, bought quite a few stuff today, splurged. i'm depleting my savings AGAIN! D: need to work constantly to earn back my spendings, or else... i can't imagine being broke. SO LOOKING FORWARD TO CNY. it's good being unmarried, can't imagine when you have to give out red packets to people! come to think of it, it's quite an unreasonable expenditure. LOLS. sorry, can't find any reason to give out red packets, esp when you don't even have kids! money goes out and never comes back. enjoy being a kid now before you regret the red packet days!

wonder if i can sleep tonight being so anxious about the damn results tmr. sigh. pray for me! D:

last but not least, i ♥ YONGXIN loads! :D thanks for pei-ing me to shop today, more shopping dates in the future k? love ya girl!

2009-01-05T17:00:00.002+08:00

having no school is good and bad. i'd rather work and tire myself than to rot and not do anything at home! feel so meaningless to pass time like that. hopefully i can get THAT roadshow job soon. hehehe. (: then at least i've got smth to help me pass time quickly.

getting results in exactly 7 days time! oh great, i thought i was prepared for this. really can't imagine what kinda results i'd get. hopefully it won't be too far from my expectations... had many stupid dreams about getting back results and what not. i know this is dumb, but i asked around and many o level people seem to have that kinda weird dreams too. hahaha.

i shall start dating people soon, haven't really been going out much during my hols! prolly cos everyone is rotting at home and waiting for people to date them like me. HAHAHA. :D sounds possible to me.

actually my hols have been pretty interesting. worked 3 different jobs in total after Os till now. quite fun, more fun than rotting at home! worked in Hyatt Hotel (for 1 day), IT Fair (for 4 days) and Wine Fair. all the jobs have totally NO LINK, which makes it very interesting for me. cos every time i change a job, i won't get sick of it. cos half the time, if you notice the period of time i work in each job, it's not very long. hehehe. :D now i've got lotsa work experience! at least something to write in my future resume. (:

those who haven't work a single bit this holidays, i really wonder how you people survive through this long holidays. i can't even stand rotting at home for a day! ran out of dramas to watch. any show to recommend? i don't mind if it's old. hehehe. :D wait, recommend means must have the dvd/vcd to lend me hor. don't make me dl or buy, cos i won't. :D not that i'm cheapskate, but it's pointless since i hardly rewatch dramas.

alright, i shall blog till here. see the fast updates? cos esther's BORED! :O ciaos. date me date me!

2009-01-02T23:39:00.002+08:00

year 2008 passed in a blink, welcome 2009! i guess it was mainly due to big fat Os, all the studying and what not. took up a huge portion of my time worrying and studying and mugging. i'm really not prepared for this year, frankly speaking. imagine: school starts, new school life in a whole new environment, and TADA, PROMOS. what a wet blanket.

but still, i'd like to thank God for letting me have such a long hols! :D i know many of you have started school, trying not to be mean to laugh at you guys. had my fun teasing shaun today. HAHAHA. :D thank God for giving me such fun-loving bro/sis-in-christ. the never ending trail of programmes bonded us quite a bit and i'm thankful for that. countdown at yongxin's cousin's house, roller blading at ecp... love it! (i'm suffering from the adverse effects which is butt/thigh/back aches!)

i feel the pressure coming as 12 Jan approaches. a really mixed feeling now: anxious to know whether i can enter my dream school but yet fear the disappointment. SIGHS. i guess that happens to almost everyone? part and parcel of life i suppose. i'm not exactly ready for school, yet to enjoy my hols to the fullest! have been working my hols away ever since Os ended. the greatest wet blanket is that THE ADULT FARE IS BEING CHARGED EVER SINCE 1 JAN 2009! this sucks big time. i'm paying like 3 times the amount of what i pay and guess what? i'm responsible for those top-ups. GREAT.

i want to get out of the house but yet i can't bear to spend extra on those stupid tranport fees! GRRR. can i apply for the senior citizen concession? HAHAHA. i guess that'll be a great solution. :D

enough of rantings i suppose, spare your eyes the agony. bye!

2008-12-31T00:34:00.002+08:00

buffet ahoy! :D had sakae buffet ytd, had seoul garden today. i can feel myself growing fatter instantly after eating so much. seriously haven't been going out for the past dunno how long ever since Os ended! i've been working and working and working, which is a good thing. i spent almost 3-digit over the past 2 days! can't imagine if i've gone out instead of working. my savings would have been negative long time ago! :O thank God i worked. phew.

i would also like to thank God for allowing me to receive the Good Progress Award of $150 which will cancel off my spendings for the past two days. HAHAHA. so don't you dare ask me to treat you or anything. ESTHER WU IS DECLARING HERSELF BROKE!

i love doing manicure! purple nails are damn cool. :D express manicure at jean yip is only 8 bucks (before gst), so it'll be $8.60 after adding the gst. yupps. still cheap considering that express manicure outside is about 12 bucks onwards. it's fun! i know many people are starting school and unable to put nail polish and what nots, feel sad for you guys. those that can, go do it! referring to girls of course. guys wanna do also can lah, but damn weird.

it's the last day of the year already, happy new year eve everyone! :D

2008-12-28T19:55:00.003+08:00

i've decided to continue blogging about my trip cos i suddenly rmbed something that i want to blog. this trip was pretty cool. within the 3D2N, we bumped into lele and family! :D thus, 3 families ended up touring around malacca tgt instead of the 2. while shopping at makota, i saw my primary school friend! after that, we went to some restaurant to have dinner and uncle guotai (lele's dad) bumped into his ex-colleague. isn't that COOL! it is okay... it's a small world after all~

some people are just plain insensitive, i will reciprocate you with whatever you've done, don't regret.

2008-12-27T22:02:00.002+08:00

just returned from m'sia and feeling pretty shagged from the horrible coach ride from malacca. it sucks big time i tell you, i meant the coach ride. took 3 hours to get to malacca from singapore but took 6.5 hours the same way back. like WTH? sounds hilarious i know. prolly you'll be thinking that there's traffic jam and what not. there was, but it didn't take THAT long. jammed all the way from the m'sia custom to woodlands checkpoint. finished a whole entire lollipop just to pass that retarded bridge!

but thinking about what i bought, it kills all the anger in me. HEHEHE. :D i seriously bought lotsa stuff this trip though it's only 3D2N. shopped from makota to pahalawan shopping centre to their pasar malam. the things there are seriously CHEAP, especially their restaurants. i'm dead serious. had our first dinner at a place called BEI ZHAN. ordered dunno how many dishes (about 7 i think), including shark's fin and soft shell crab. guess how much was it per head? roughly S$10+ bucks! shocking huh. i was shocked too. :O the meal was freaking good, except the fact that their service was not very good. but i'm sure the food is more important. HAHAHA. :D especially when you're hungry.

okay lah, i will stop blogging about the trip for now. will blog if i feel like it. :D hahaha. bye for now!

2008-12-18T16:30:00.002+08:00

just returned from anshao camp. shall start off blogging about my job before anshao camp, that is the job at a Wine Fair.

don't ask my why i've been working only at fairs only, the only reason i can think of is that i'm lazy. HAHA. cos fairs are not long-term, so i can choose to work within that period of time without having to work every single day. smart eh? i know. hahaha! have been SAMPLING wine everyday (though many of you will say i'm still underage or whatsoever), but there's no age limit to wine sampling okay! there's only an age limit to the person who's purchasing wine. so, there's nothing wrong with that! besides, it's not as though i drink the entire bottle and get drunk there or what. so chill people! i know many of you think that it's a slacker and luxurious job. hahaha, i do agree with that. :D

okay, back to blogging about anshao camp. it is a real torture to climb up four stories just to get to the girls dorm okay! even if you don't do strenuous activities during the camp, you'll definitely get muscleaches after just one day of climbing stairs. and every year, it seems to be a yearly routine that i'll lose smth during camp. 2 years ago, i lost my nike bottle. last year, i forgot what i lost. this year, i lost my shampoo soap and cleanser! like come on lah, want to steal also steal more ex stuff lah, take my toiletries for what! zzz. during the camp, i used a total of 4 different cleanser cos i lost mine. i know this sounds really retarded, don't laugh.

the captains ball in the muddy field was speechless, call me bimbotic if you want, i just don't like to get dirty. and the balloon game was AHHH! *screams* those who know me should know that i'm afraid of balloons. sounds dumb for a 16 year old to say that, but it's a fact! hate it hate it loads. therefore, i'd like to apologise to my group members for being such a spoilsport player. thousand apologies. D:

played bridge till late night, really fun! it's not as brainless as daidi which is so not fun after you play bridge. HAHAHA. no offence to daidi lovers. it's quite interesting when you start allying with your partner and come up with strategies to counter your opponents in order to win. somehow or rather, a twist in the victory do occur which makes the game super interesting. :D but the sad thing is that you need 4 people to play bridge! D: aww. let's have an overnight bridge marathon on 31 Dec k anshao people? :D sounds fun to me. hehehe. i'm making myself excited! x)

a few of us headed to ikea for lunch. MEATBALLS! they are delicious i tell you, cheap and good! once you eat it, you'll be addicted to it and frequent ikea for the sake of meatballs! hahaha. not hallucinating, just stating facts. good news are meant to be shared right? (: so are delicious food!

i want to watch bu liang xiao hua! but apparently, i've been missing all the way ever since channel u started airing the show. zzz. so i need to borrow from some kind soul who has it. :D any kind soul out there? you can get me that for christmas present too. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! i would gladly accept it.

another random thing that i wanna blog about. the game 'cooking mama' in nds is damn fun! HAHAHA. retarded to the core, but it's still fun! doubt i'll be able to get a ds since i have a psp. shall try borrowing it from some kind soul who's willing to lend me. hehehe. :D highly addictive game as well for girls, not adviced for guys to play it. you guys would most prolly roll your eyes after playing it. HAHAHAHAHA! so don't try for your own happiness. (:

i shall go watch tv now after not watching for the past 4 days! feel as though i've lagged behind time after anshao camp. camp lag? i dunno. whatever it is.

2008-12-12T23:34:00.000+08:00

一句话
爱上你那时爱到不象话
后来想尽办法忘掉
到最后我就合上嘴巴
多说像对自己撒谎
星空下说永恒额头上的吻
你双手将我环绕
未来即便它是一个问号
也能对自己炫耀
有一句话再也都听不到
那些过往只好放在心上
你爱我太美好时间会知道
怎样去熬成一句动人的话
有一句话再也都听不到
那些过往让它自己燃烧
我爱你太美好时间会知道
怎样去熬成动人一句话
记忆里说我们相同的体温
一想到就不会冷
未来永远都是一个问号
也是种天荒地老
有一句话再也都听不到
那些过往让它自己燃烧
我爱你太美好时间会知道
怎样去熬成动人一句话
这是一种成长还是一种逞强
我的寂寞很善良陪我到任何地方
有一句话再也都听不到
那些过往只好放在心上
你爱我太美好时间会知道
怎样去熬成一句动人的话
有一句话再也都听不到
那些过往越呼吸越明亮
我爱你太美好时间它一定会
把它熬成世上最动人的话

一个人勇敢
你想要的我不明白
明明可以爱得很自然
两个人世界多简单
就是我爱你你爱我不难
你还是离开
你的决定与我无关
我能理解我不会责怪
这是你给我的答案
你要我接受却还要我等待
等不到一个未来
我不相信爱很难
没有一点温度残留下来
你失踪的爱我的幸福跟你离开
谢谢你那么坦白
原来失去以后比较愉快
不会再伤感
你的决定与我无关
我能理解我不会责怪
这是你给我的答案
你要我接受却还要我等待
等不到一个未来
我不相信爱很难
没有一点温度残留下来
你失踪的爱我的幸福跟你离开
谢谢你那么坦白
原来失去以后比较愉快
不会再伤感
就算爱很难我也不怕失败
一定有一天我会比你想象更勇敢
我不相信爱很难
没有一点温度残留下来
你带走了爱我在原地不曾离开
谢谢你让我明白
原来失去以后比较愉快
我学会灿烂
一个人勇敢

2008-12-09T00:25:00.002+08:00

醉赤壁
落葉堆積了好幾層而我踩過青春聽見
前世誰在淚語紛紛一次緣分解一次繩我今生還在等
一世就只能有一次的認真

確認過眼神我遇上對的人我揮劍轉身而鮮血如紅唇
前朝記憶渡紅塵傷人的不是刀刃是妳轉世而來的魂
確認過眼神我遇上對的人我策馬出征馬蹄聲如淚奔

青石板上的月光照進這山城
我一路的跟妳輪迴聲我對妳用情極深

洛陽城旁的老樹根像回憶般延伸
妳問經過是誰的心跳聲我拿醇酒一醰飲恨
妳那千年眼神是我醉醉墜入赤壁的傷痕

確認過眼神我遇上對的人我揮劍轉身而鮮血如紅唇
前朝記憶渡紅塵傷人的不是刀刃是妳轉世而來的魂
確認過眼神我遇上對的人我策馬出征馬蹄聲如淚奔

青石板上的月光照進這山城
我一路的跟妳輪迴聲我對妳用情極深

確認過眼神我遇上對的人我策馬出征馬蹄聲如淚奔
青石板上的月光照進這山城
我一路的跟妳輪迴聲我對妳用情極深

2008-12-05T23:06:00.003+08:00

met up with bim today cos i was really really BORED to the core after staying at home for the entire wed and thu. met up with her at tpy central for lunch at pizza hut. actually the plan was to have lunch at sakae, but being ill, my appetite is POOR. so buffet won't be a good deal. (: can't imagine the amount of things we talked about despite meeting her everyday during it fair. haha! we still have our fair share to rant and crap. hmm, i guess that's just called friendship. friends have everlasting words to exchange. :D

went to shop at ntuc cos we've planned to bake cheesecake! it was delicious. took a slice, it's a pity that i'm having sore throat. guess it's a little too heaty for my throat to endure. or else i'd have finished at least half the cake! hehehe. cheesecake is LOVE. i'm so gonna bake it in the future cos the cost price is really much much cheaper. though it doesn't look as nice, but i'm sure the taste is more impt! wanna try? you wait. hahaha! i'm gonna finish them all.

really hope that my entire clique will get into the same jc. at least we'll get to see each other often. or even if we're separated into different jcs, i really hope we do meet up often and stay as nonsensical. :D really love them to bits. though conflicts do occur, i still love them. it's just human nature that conflicts occur right? i'm sure love trancends all boundaries. (:

i'm looking forward to the day when we're getting back our results. i know many people are dreading it but i'm the exact opposite. just curious at which school i'm eligible to apply for, that's all. hate leading guessing life. ): i wanna know my prospect school! at least i'll be mentally prepared for my future jc life. hmm, will it be stressful, wearisome, unhappy like many people described it to be? i'd like to experience it for myself. call me weird if you want, i'd prefer to see myself as adventurous. (:

a whole series of programme awaits me, i'll be packed all the way till 18th Dec! finally something for me to do. :D

2008-12-04T13:51:00.001+08:00

2008-12-04T13:36:00.004+08:00

just returned from badminton chalet ytd morning. didn't really want to go initially cos i'm not exactly feeling well after working at IT Fair, having sore throat and running nose. but since it's meant to be a sec 4 farewell chalet, sec 4s should turn up at least or else all the preparations would have been in vain. besides, i heard that many weren't attending, it won't be very nice to not attend since i'm free.

i missed the first day cos i really wasn't feeling well. got better on the 2nd day of the chalet, so i attended the bbq night. it wasn't a smart choice to eat bbq food since i was having sore throat. it became worse of course. but i enjoyed, really. (: didn't intend to overnight initially, but decided to after much persuasion. i'm really having a bad running nose now cos i was drenched by the rain on our way to the chalet. it's not that we didn't carry an umbrella, but the rain was so huge that an umbrella was useless even.

only 4 sec 4s stayed over. didn't sleep the entire night. (: we even went for a midnight movie at eHub. caught Body of Lies. quite an interesting show, but really gory! stace and i were eww-ing at this seriously bloody part. talked throughout the night by the chalet pool, got bitten by mosquitos, ranted on and on about various things, yada yada... you know, GIRLS. :D

we gave ourselves a nick, the SAD fours. haha! though we had a chalet, we had to spend the entire night outside cos we didn't want to disturb the juniors. it was packed all the way lah. they slept in sleeping bags on the floor lor. there was only one queen-sized bed available in the small pathetic room. others had to sleep downstairs in the living room area. no choice, the SAD fours left the chalet to kill time outside till morning.

had breakfast at macs. really cold in the morning i would say. left early in the morning with stace cos i couldn't take it anymore. i wanted to stay till they all check out, but i realised that i was dozing off already. on my way back on the train, i slept while standing and kept banging against the stupid door. zzz. damn embarrassing. the worse part is that the train was crowded cos of the peak hour crowd. ahh! thankfully no one knew me on the train. prolly it'll be the first and last time i meet them. so who cares! throw face then throw face lor.

got home at about 8am in the morning. got changed and slept all the way till aftn. i'm dying from sore throat now! the weather isn't helping cos it's raining now. my nose is running like a tap! zzz. this sucks. better recover by next week cos i've got to attend a wedding and have work the next entire week. please be praying for me people! love ya. :D thanks in advanace.

2008-12-01T23:01:00.002+08:00

haven't been using the computer for the past 4 days cos of it fair. my daily routine had been like this: wake up, wash up, meet bim for breakfast, take train to work, start work at 10am, end work at 9.30pm, take train home with bim, then reach home about 11pm. now you understand why i haven't been online right? i can barely find my 8 hours of beauty sleep! moreover using computer... had been cranky before and after work cos of insufficient sleep, sorry bim for enduring all this. hahaha.

to those who've came down to see me, i wanna thank you all! a few people only though. mainly my bro, shaun, bjorn and ah neh. all guys i just realised. girls aren't into IT stuff i suppose. hahaha. really nice of you all to drop by though it was kinda shun bian cos you guys were already there. whatever it is, i'm really happy that you guys did drop by! :D

as for those who've been asking how my work has been, it was FUN! :D hahaha. mainly it was due to my friends who were working tgt and the new friends that i've made there. there were also times whereby i felt really tired cos of the long working hours and lack of sleep. actually it's cos of the stupid venue, which is EXPO this time round! if it had been suntec, i could've slept more... it was quite memorable i would say, though it was just a short 4 days. quite fun cos there wasn't much discipline required unlike working at Hyatt Hotel. hate working with rules and regulations, i don't like it! D:

i'm so gonna miss it. will be working again for the march IT Fair next year. it's held at suntec this time round. hope to see more familiar faces there when working! :D

2008-11-22T01:02:00.005+08:00

我还想她
泪水将我淹没到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉这段感情

我才终于明白办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

我才终于明白办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

我不爱我不痛我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心话言不由衷

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

别告诉她我还想她
就让沉默代替所有回答

2008-11-22T00:32:00.002+08:00

had lunch with chipmunk and ant today, then went to island creamery. oh my, their ice cream flavours are unique and delicious! especially SCOTCHED CARAMEL (if i didn't rmb wrongly). caramel is heavenly! hohoho. thanks for your treat chipmunk! :D will treat you next time to reciprocate after i receive my pay.

the musical was speechless, seriously. don't intend to comment on it. totally disappointing i would say. kind of regretted going. oh wells. went to give my final support for cedar, no more in the future. went to HK cafe after the musical to chat and have supper.

spent my entire afternoon and night outside, tiring! but yet i don't feel like sleeping. hehe. weird huh. some random things i would like to blog about:
1. dong fang xiang is hot, charming and handsome.
(go watch hotshot and you'll know who he is)
2. JJ Lin's new album is nicey. :D
3. S.H.E's album is pretty weird, some songs are very nice while others are not really.
4. Jay Chou's album was disappointing. ): though he's talented, but his singing for this album has deproved compared to the previous album.
that's all for tonight, ciaos people!

2008-11-21T01:08:00.000+08:00

http://color-vision-test.freeonlinegames.com/
do play this if you're feeling bored. (: it's FUN!

2008-11-20T02:04:00.003+08:00

i just changed my blogskin minutes ago. had a hard time editing cos of the screwed up html. grr! but the sense of achievement behind it is, shiok! :D hahaha. cute not? i know it is, that's why i changed to this. see how bored am i! usually i'll only change my blogskin like once in a million years cos it takes a long time to edit (for me). can't help it, i'm a perfectionist (applies only for certain things). must complete editing all at one shot, don't like to leave it there hanging and my poor readers will have to wait. ain't i thoughtful? (: i know i am. anw, it's like 2am and i'm still awake. hols are so hard to waste away! school days were much easier. i kinda miss the anxiety and stress during exams. now that i'm so free and easy, i find myself so aimless. working is tough, going out requires money, i can't prolly be studying now... i've been wasting lotsa time through watch drama! hahaha. it's a good way, especially you've been stocking up during exam periods. hohoho. there's a whole list coming! shall kill time by watching drama. i told my mum that the best way to save money is to watch drama at home and not step outta the house. she then rebutted me and said: "as you save money, i'm spending money on electricity!" HAHA. whatever, i didn't say she'll save. i meant I WILL SAVE. :D short post before i go to sleep. poly people, enjoy schooling! :D ciaos.

2008-11-18T22:22:00.003+08:00

i'm super ultra broke to the core. doubt i can go shopping this whole month unless some kind soul pays for everything i buy. although i'm broke, i still demand for a laptop! it's really annoying to use my brother's laptop/computer. every time i on the com, he'll say he wants to use it when he's actually using the laptop. annoying right! it happens most of the time. so i hardly use the com. partly cos i've been watching lan qiu huo. HAHAHA. :D it's quite funny and sad though. i just realised the yan ceng xu is pretty charming. hehe.

it was my first day at work as waitress in Hyatt Hotel. the experience was ONE OF A KIND. though the pay is good, it's pretty tiring. the worse part of everything is that we got lost a few times! the kitchen area was super confusing. it's like a maze. kept asking people on the way where is the office, ballroom, etc. sadly, most of the waitors/waitresses were newbies like us. how unlucky! kept being commanded to do this do that. i shall get my revenge at the next banquet that i attend as a consumer!

the event that i worked at was some banquet organised by Tiger Beer. those people seriously DRINKERS lah. kept demanding for beer after beer after beer. madness can! kept running to and fro, from the kitchen to the ballroom. guess i ran like that for 10 over times! but there's bound to be funny experiences. HAHAHA.
1. there were a few times we asked other waitors/waitresses how to get to this particular place and in the end, we tried figuring out tgt and got lost tgt!
2. while clearing the chilli sauce from the table, i stacked them onto this round tray i was holding. it stacked so high that it almost fell on this woman's head.
3. we were assigned to groups of 3s. my group consist of me, another girl and a guy. the guy was damn funny. cos we were all first-timers, we have yet to learn how to kiap food with a fork and a spoon. while he was serving his table, one of the aunties asked him to serve and he struggled. the auntie could see that he didn't know how to do it and so, got him to stand there while she taught him. laughed at him when he told me. i told him to serve smart: dunno how to serve, put the dish, and RUN! that's what i did for my table. HAHAHA. :D

it was tiring though. had muscleaches today. AHH! laid on the bed the whole entire day to watch lan qiu huo. hehehe. (: i'm finishing already. hohoho. don't be too jealous! you can buy it from bluemax at $20 for the entire show. this hols is gonna be a really broke one! ):

2008-11-14T22:17:00.002+08:00

i want to thank God that i'm alive. have this random thought cos i almost fainted while i was outside buying lunch. see, this is what i mean by I CANNOT BE HUNGRY. didn't have breakfast cos i woke up really late and it was already noon, so i thought i could just do away with breakfast and have lunch straight away. smart me left the house with an empty stomach. the queue was pretty long for the famous ba chor mee just opposite my block. stood there for a long time while waiting for my lunch. all of a sudden, my vision became blur and i started swaying about. though i was on the verge of fainting, i just leaned against this stack of canned drinks and looked as though nothing was wrong with me. when i really whited-out (couldn't see anything), i quickly ran out of the coffee shop. couldn't really rmb how i did it, but i rmb that i banged into many people cos i couldn't see properly. when i really couldn't take it anymore, i was squatting ON THE ROAD. thankfully, some kind-hearted auntie picked me up and brought me back into the coffee shop. she gave me medicated oil and bought me milo. when i regained my vision, i could see that many people were staring at me like some clown in the circus. embarrassing! tried to ignore those stares by engrossing myself in my lunch. the auntie and friends were telling me that it was so dangerous of me to squat beside a road and that i should take care of myself. this isn't the first time already. i think it's the fourth time? heard from the auntie that i was really pale and my lips were WHITE. goodness. so ghost-like!

jeno, so sorry for not going shopping with you the last minute. ): i promise i'll compensate some other day, that is, if you have the time. you should know what i'm referring to. will be praying for you! do take care of yourself k? :D

still feeling slight dizziness on and off, do pray for me! i can't afford to be unwell cos i'm going to be working soon. ): thanks in advance!

2008-11-12T22:36:00.002+08:00

i can't believe the whole entire world is celebrating while poor esther has one more biology paper to go. but i guess if you understand me well enough, you would have guessed that i've started unofficial holidays since last thursday. HAHAHA. :D but that's just self-grant hols, i want official hols! many people has been telling me that hols after Os is gonna be boring, moreover mine cos there's NO PROM. how saddening. ): no idea what's the problem with my school, does organising a prom kill? doesn't seem to me.

plans for hols:
1. go out and enjoy
2. working at Hyatt Hotel as waitress
3. working at IT Fair (do come and support cos it's commission based)
4. anshao camp
5. carolling
6. christmas!
7. KL Trip
8. preparation for new school life? no idea...

our holidays are pathetic, bare 2 months only. what is this! we deserve a much longer break than that after the exhausting Os. brain cells need to be replenished, rest needed for the body cos we've been studying till late nights, restore energy and the list goes on. see! we DO need longer holidays for useful purposes. (: make sense right?

start booking me people, or else i'll be working on the other days that no one is booking me. (: hahaha. i'm on a earning money scheme cos my savings depleted like running water. any slacker and good paying job to recommend? drop a tag at my tagboard. thanks in advance!

2008-11-08T21:12:00.004+08:00

seen the two characteristics of singaporeans today: kiasu and lazy (taking short-cuts)

1. KIASU-ISM
kw, jen, jo and i were having dinner at chomp chomp today. many people were waiting beside our table even before we left our seats. it was considered okay cos it makes sense especially in a place like chomp chomp where it's really packed on weekends. then, there poor guy whom i seriously empathise. he had already been standing there for about more than 5 minutes or so when this annoying woman conveniently stood in front of him as though he was transparent. like seriously, err! i guess out of gentlemanliness, he just gave way and went to other places to search for seats. saw his stunned expression when the auntie did that. poor him. but then, the weird woman went to take the table behind us instead when those people left. like come on lah, you were waiting for our table, what for snatch someone else's table? fyi, there was a bunch of girls waiting for the table behind us. like dot dot dot can. they were glaring at her and utterly stumped by her action. so was i.
another woman came and stood beside us again. this time, we wanted to give our seats to a bunch of guys who waited near us for a longer period of time. i mean that's just pure fairness right? we kinda signalled to him and he was reluctant to come over, prolly cos it's an auntie that they are competing against and it's just repectful to give way to the elders. but then, if you were to do that, you won't have to have dinner anymore. i kinda told the auntie that the guys came first and it makes more sense to me to give our seats to them, but she rebutted me and said that she's been waiting at another side for an even longer period of time. get alive lah AUNTIE, i'm sure that you've got all the rights to reserve all the seats within the circumference lah. like zzz. so turned off by her.
feel really sad for those guys seriously, why are they so gentleman at the wrong time?! in this kinda situation, i'd rather they be more aggressive lor. jen and i thought of a plan to annoy these kinda people (normally the aunties). anyhow shout a name (in our case, a guy's name) and act as though he's your friend. invite him over to sit before the rest of the people leave the table. in this case, i'm sure the auntie will have no choice but to get lost. HAHAHA. shall try this someday, sounds evil but i like!

2. LAZINESS
after dinner, we headed off separate ways home. when i reached tpy interchange, i saw this uncle who was freaking retarded. he was trying to walk through an automatic door through the sides. it was actually open like few seconds before he walked through it, but when he was trying to walk through it, it shut close and he walked right into it. there was a loud bang and everyone was staring. could see that this guy who was walking towards me was trying to hold his laughter. actually i thought it was nothing funny, but then come to think of it, it really was. HAHAHA. :D singaporeans just like to take short cuts, just like this uncle who ultimately banged right into the door. seriously, it was the first time i saw someone did that. i ever tried to imagine, but i thought anyone would be smart enough to wait till the door open right? but then, he thought he could walk through in time. i guess he forgot that the sensor was in the center instead of the side. ROFL. it was seriously retarded. if a child did that, i would feel sad for him. but if it was an uncle (approx 50+), you'll laugh your ass off if you were there.
so, if you want to attract any form of attention in a public area, just walk right into an automatic glass door. first, you'll invite stares (which is your ultimate goal). second, everyone will laugh at you (that's just the after effect). the more crowded it is, the more effective. do try it if you're that desperate for attention. (:

when i came home, my mum was telling me that some indian guy committed suicide in front of my block. thankfully i wasn't at home, or else i'd have been traumatised if i'd witnessed it with my own eyes. i've ever imagine what would happen if i were to witness someone jumping off a block. freaky huh. prolly you'll think it's just another episode of the news, but think about it if it happened right in front of your block. come to think of it, the block in front of my house has been pretty happening. previously, there was a murder case and now a case of suicide. the block has barely been up for a year or so. hmm, freaky huh...

my day has been fun ever since i got up today. hehehe. really enjoyed it loads! having muscleaches now and my face is burnt. but it's worth the fun. (: hope there'll be more of swimming outings at the ultra cool clubhouse. cheers!

2008-11-07T00:16:00.002+08:00

big fat Os is finally coming to an end. kinda sad that the exam days are passing real fast, oh man, i'm totally unprepared for tertiary education! imagine a whole new experience in a new poly/jc, don't really enjoy the first few days in a new environment, i'm a real shy girl. haha! :D i shall blog about my exams cos i haven't been blogging much. hopefully this won't bore you to death!

English was okay only, not exactly confident of scoring an A. quite disappointing i would say, though i'm not an English ace person. haha. but it was my aim to get a distinction for either of the languages to minimise my L1R5.

Higher Chinese wasn't as bad as expected. was pretty unprepared cos i spent the day before studying for human geography instead (which was the paper the day after hmt). haha. thankfully i did that, or else i wouldn't have finished studying human geography at all! my essay was freaking long, 4 pages. might not be that impressive to some, but considering my usual standards, it's beyond expectations already. usually i write about 2 1/2 pages only. as for paper 2, i almost dozed off while doing cos the weather was real humid. haha! thankfully i didn't and managed to finish the entire paper without dozing off fully.

e maths was annoying. had tons of careless and dumb mistakes. grr. don't talk about it. i just hope it'll be an A1. hahaha. or else i'll prolly jump off a building.

a maths was quite okay. i empathise with those who don't take it cos it was easy. i would say it's easier than e maths seriously, many of my friends agreed with that. what a pity. could have been a bonus subject for R5. hope i'll ace it too!

ss/hist was shockingly do-able. i'm actually more confident in ss/hist than geography which is shocking! prolly cos mili saved it. thanks mili! or else i'd have given it up for Os cos i haven't been doing well for it. the best i got was a C6. get what i mean??

geography sucks! i'm pissed with myself. didn't study hard enough for human geography and i regret it big time! partly it's cos i haven't been feeling really well lately and have been resting more than supposed. i napped the whole afternoon away the day before (ytd) and only studied at night and this morning before the paper. super last minute. it could have been a give away! ):

as for bio and chem, i'm still left with the paper ones. what a drag! it's on next wed and thu. spoilers of the holidays! GRRR. hope i won't lose the motivation to study for paper 1 cos it contributes to 30% of my results! really praying hard that i'll study and not be so lazy and lose the hang to study.

alright, that's about it. i'm kinda looking forward to see my results so that i can plan realistically for my future school. pray for me ya? i'm really stressed out and worn out. ):

2008-10-29T22:01:00.004+08:00

说好的幸福呢

你的绘画凌乱着在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯我还爱你了
但你断断续续唱着歌假作没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒在旋转着要怎么停呢

你的绘画凌乱着在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯我还爱你了
但你断断续续唱着歌假作没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒在旋转着要怎么停呢

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒在旋转着要怎么停呢

2008-10-28T21:17:00.004+08:00

history exam made me smile. :D for the first time, i feel proud of my essays. mili rocks big time! pestered her like mad ytd just to clarify history stuff at the last minute. if i were her, i would have been irritated. i called her at like 11+ pm lah! thankfully she didn't sound pissed... if not for her, i would i totally gave up studying history cos it sucks big time. it's actually not that tough after all, just that i didn't bother to even find out and read up the tb. hehe. oh wells, that's my nature i suppose. (:
mili is really smart, and she made me history-smart overnight. really seriously grateful to her. i just realised i've got specific people to consult over different subjects. haha. like some mini student mentors. feel bad though, cos they themselves have to study for Os but yet i kept approaching them. did try to help, but quite pointless at this time cos my only strong subjects are maths and chem, which is left with only 2 minor papers. haha! that's as good as not helping.
realised that i've got a weird habit of chionging korean dramas during exam period. prelims was 'My Sassy Girl' and Os is 'My Girl'. guess that can be a source of motivation for me. it's NOT true that people who are having exams should be banned from watching dramas okay, at least that's for me. hehe. it's not an excuse to slack, but rather a form of destress and relaxation! i trade my tv time for dramas okay, so that's not counted as over-watching tv!
the longer Os drag, the more i don't feel like studying. i'm already semi-slacking i think. suddenly feel that i've lost the studying mood, partly cos history's over. history is like one of my WORST WORST WORST subjects for me. cos i never bothered to find out even when i didn't understand. that's how you differentiate slackers and muggers. last minute mugging works for my clique, prolly that's why people think that my clique is a slacker clique. we don't usually study much throughout the year and play like nuts in class, but surprisingly produce results that ain't that bad. shocking? not really, just smart. HAHA! JUST KIDDING. we DO study at home okay...
this week is snailing its way, time is passing real slowly... i'm looking forward to every sunday, that's the only thing i can currently look forward to. after next week, feel free to date me cos i'll be more free than any of you out there! :D

don't be sad because it's over,
smile because it happened. (:

2008-10-26T17:10:00.003+08:00

captain's ball rocks big time! it's a pity that my group didn't win. oh wells. we had the most number of guys and the tallest few people in my group. but i guess being complacent will just make you fall. a lesson learnt from the game, but that's besides the point. most importantly, we've had fun and all of us enjoyed ourselves. :D
history and biology is plain torture. why can't students in singapore learn from the western education instead of emphasising so much on wholistic education? cos if it was that system, we wouldn't have to take that much subjects. but that's like the kiasu and the most general education that can cater to all aspects in the future.
studying is a process of killing brain cells. that shall be my definition for studying. (: tell me what's yours and leave a tag at my tagboard! i'm interested to find out. hehe.

i have no idea how long i can sustain this,
i'm TIRED.
if i had a choice,
i wouldn't have chose this path to take,
it's draining all my energy.
is this pure stubbornness?
i hope not.

2008-10-24T22:31:00.003+08:00

i've decided to update my stagnant blog. i bet hardly anyone visits my blog, but my main point of blogging is just to share about my monotonous life. (:
a week of Os has passed, has been quite a stressful but happy week. every time a paper ends, i'll feel mentally tired. all i can think off is to sleep my evening away. even when i try to study, nothing gets in. but thank God that most of my papers are in the afternoon, so i've got the entire morning to revise. hehe.
got a bunch of retarded friends to accompany through this period. though our secondary school days are ending real soon, i still hope we'll be able to keep in contact. :D they are my closest bunch of classmates ever come to think of it. haha. really gonna miss those madness days!
passing this week is a relieving one. at least 7 papers are over, another 9 more to go! yippee yaya yippee yippee ya~ another 3 weeks to countdown. history and biology is coming up this week, i dread dread dread this! hopefully i won't fail either. ): my cert will be so beautiful with those marks.
glad to make it for prayer meeting today though i almost died. wasn't paying much attention, pretty guilty. :/ oh wells, i can't possibly turn back time to change whatever that has happened right?? what an excuse. but the next prayer meeting will be after my Os. :D so i doubt such things won't happen again.
alright, i'm really TIRED. blog another time. (:

2008-10-18T01:05:00.013+08:00

600TH POST ANNIVERSARY! :D yay. this is an update on wednesday, 15th October. went out with pastor kelly and yvonne to have lunch at 日本村. :D yummy sushi, nice ambience, nice customers (us). headed on to ikea with von after that. did many weird things there, quite insane and high. btw, the food at ikea is GOOD. CHEESECAKE THERE ROCKS BIG TIME! though it didn't really taste like cheese according to von. haha. but whatever it is, it still tastes nice! :D enjoy the pics.

this is yvonne and me (duh)

...and this is pastor kelly

being retarded is my forte,

so is it hers.

advertising for ikea! any pay for that??

shoes that were meant for DISPLAY, we took it out to try on instead. HAHA!

more advertisements for ikea TOYS for KIDS. (:

perfect advertisors right! :D

i knew it, they should hire us.

at the cafeteria in ikea that serves DELICIOUS FOOD!

cheers!

2008-10-14T22:13:00.003+08:00

Second Chance - Faber Drive

I found the phone
I must've missed your message
You got it wrong, It wasn't what your friend said.
Tell by your tone, I've taken it too far again.
(Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.)

Your friends are telling you, You gotta move on.
(Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.)
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why I ever waited to say.
Cuz I'm just dying just to see you again.

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should've let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

I should've known, took you and I for granted
Gotta let you know, I was never underhanded.
Tell by your tone, I've taken it too far again.
(Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.)

My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.
(Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.)
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why I ever waited to say.
Cuz I'm just dying just to see you again.

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should've let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

My last mistake, putting my friends first.
I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

What you give is always what you get.
There's so much I haven't given yet.
If you could give another second chance.
(Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.)

My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.
(Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.)
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why I ever waited to say.
Cuz I'm just dying just to see you.

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should've let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

My last mistake, putting my friends first.
I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.
You were the first to give I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place to get a second chance.

Instead of holding you, I was holding out
I should've let you in, but I let you down
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

2008-10-14T00:59:00.003+08:00

2008-10-07T21:25:00.016+08:00

these are some of the photos that i took at the 2nd last day of school. after browsing through, i realise how much i'm gonna miss my class! especially after graduation ceremony... sigh. i guess it's impossible to experience such havoc-y class ever again. :/ i'm so gonna miss them many many! these are the classmates that i took photo with. (: enjoy!

these photos were taken on graduation rehearsal day. i'm not going to upload all. ask me if you want the photos. (:

this was taken on graduation day. mummy attended! yay. :D super happy.

i've finally graduated from cedar girls' secondary school, therefore, i'm allowed to rebel at all cost against the school rules. HAHAHAHA. :D sounds shiok. i can't wait for the next 1 1/2 months to fly past quickly. it's barely 2 weeks before Os and i'm already dying. may i ask those guo lai ren how did you guys survive this torment?? i'm exhausted! D:

2008-10-01T20:48:00.002+08:00

today's the last week of school for all secondary four pupils in cedar girls'. time really flies. it's quite sad actually that time flies, means that i'm growing up so quickly even before i realise. ): soon, i'll be in the working world where studying won't exist. imagine working on and on for a few decades, how monotonous! :O it's part of the growing process that everyone has to go through sadly.

tmr is kinda the last schooling day already. cos timetable for friday is really funny, 8.00 - 8.30am is clearing up of classroom and 8.30 - 1.40pm is rehearsals for graduation ceremony. how lame! imagine walking up and down and up and down the whole morning... *faints*

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY EVERYONE! no matter whether you are a kid or not, i still want to wish you. everyone is a child at heart at all times. (: attended 同工会 today and headed to ecp with 6 other girls and 1 guy. quite a last minute thing, but it was still FUN! we cycled for 2 whole hours and had dinner at the hawker centre near parkway. i even had to buy a pair of shorts cos i wore skirt to church. haha! super funny.

found out many things that were shocking, surprising, earth-shaking, and... whatever. i dunno how to say, but i found out quite a lot of things today. interesting and mind-boggling. it shall be kept as a secret. (:

school days are ending, exams are coming, esther's going crazy! another 2 plus weeks to the most horrible and torturous days of my life this year. pray for me people! i'm friggin' stressed. ):

2008-09-23T23:26:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
i'm finally sixteen. something that i'm not really happy about actually. i'd rather be a kid all my life. haha. it's so much more stress-free than a teenage life. all you have to do is play play play! sounds immature, i know. but i can't help it, it's my nature. (:
gotta thank those people who took time to sms me 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY'. though it may not mean a lot to you people, it meant a lot to me. (: thank you xinyi, stacey, ah neh, gy (maid), jen, kaiwen, julia, mel, junyan, qianning, meibao, simbo, tay lieu, linying, gin (panda), lunsiong, amanda, qiu and yuting. hahaha. i have no idea why yvonne refused to sms me. ): i'm sad.
but on the brighter side, she dedicated a post with a video to me on her blog! (plus a super duper GLAM pic of me -.-) refrain from scrolling down please. haha.
anyway, school's been BAD. i don't understand the rationale of teachers piling us with homework when we're suppose to be REVISING. like come on lah, after we finish all the homework given, we would be half dead to even revise anything can! besides, the weather is getting on my nerves... grr. HOT WEATHER = CRANKY ESTHER. i think i've said this one thousand and one times.
revision when i'm not in the mood = unproductive. ): when am i gonna ever finish revising?? why can't schools grant us leaves like how it works in offices?? haha. it'll be good if they do, then we can replenish sleep. poor students like us take around 8 subjects okay, very poor thing de lor. slogging my guts out to stay up late just to study (ineffectively, sadly). sigh. how long must this go on?? :/

2008-09-22T16:35:00.002+08:00

i'm super happy (but tired at the same time) cos tmr is a special special day! "what a big hint", many of you must be thinking. HAHAHA. :D but it's meant to be one. i've already received the first birthday present this year from my dearest cousin! love her many many. hope i'll NOT receive assessment books or mock papers or tys or fys for my birthday though i know i'm having Os this year. but please don't try to be funny. just a short post before MY BIG DAY arrives. (: ciaos!

2008-09-18T19:37:00.002+08:00

today is a bad bad day. D: geography LDQ test became a full question on development, 1 hour maths mock exam became 2.5 hours, got scolded during bio lesson, tuition had to be postponed, got a lecture from tutor, mother didn't help me, WHAT IS THIS?!! i'll seriously go crazy if i have to endure these crap everyday, getting on my nerves.

mock maths exam is going to be on a weekly basis, big fat sigh. not that i don't like maths or what, but it's really energy-draining to be doing mock papers for 2 hour plus. geography test on development was damn screwed. for the first time i felt that i truly studied for geog test. sense of accomplishment. (: but it came with a price okay... i studied till 12 am for 2 whole nights just to write the notes! oh man. getting severe eye bags, dying in school trying to concentrate throughout lessons, moreover remedials! i can't imagine how people can survive this period without going mad. studying till late nights is torturous! moreover mugging.

i've been meeting weird people recently. on bus journey back to tpy, there was this weird uncle who shh-ed me and my friends a few times when we were talking. that wasn't that bad. then, on my way to buy lunch, i passed by him and guess what he said?? he shouted something damn damn damn vulgar! at least to me it was. ask me if you want to know what he shouted. i don't wanna dirty my blog with vulgarities.

went out with ps and jen ytd to celebrate our bdays. hahaha. (: it was fun! had lunch at shokudo. the food was delicious but their service sucks. if you wish to try, do not go to the citylink outlet, the workers there are blind and deaf. camwhored like mad at the shop. haha. we were playing with our hp frames. shall post some below. (: that's all for this post! i'm too tired (and lazy) to continue.

2008-09-14T22:35:00.002+08:00

5 more weeks to big fat Os. i'm happy. haha. you might think i'm crazy, i think i am too. i just can't wait to get over and done with lah! but with good results of course. i'm aiming for 7. is that possible? it's possible of course. provided i mug everyday, which can be a little hard for me...

apart from that, i got a new phone! :D it's white and pretty. though it's some old phone model but it's cheap. haha. W910i. it's quite lag though, but heck, i think it's nice. it's already giving me problems, sadly. hopefully it'll repair itself so that i won't have to make my way down to wisma and wait and wait and wait...

school is getting terrible by day. remedials feels terribly long and useless, can't wait to pon all some day. hahaha. :D that'll be cool and fun! tests are also consecutively planned. i bet all the teachers are out to kill us. we're having like at least 1 test everyday! i want to complain. :O

everything is driving me nuts. can't slack, can't take naps excessively, can't go out every week as before, so many cant'ts! restricted and boring life. i'm going crazy soon. another 9 weeks and i'll be FREE! :D

2008-09-08T20:19:00.002+08:00

i shall be hardworking and update a little today since many people are saying that i'm LAZY. (: but it's true, HAHAHA!

today is a BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD day. got back most of my prelim papers. some were good, the others were BAD! i actually FAILED bio lah! so disappointed. but i guess it's not point crying over spilt milk. the right attitude should be work harder for Os! easy to say huh. i think so too.

however, i ought to be thankful for the other improvements in other subjects. guess what? my chemistry actually improved by 6 grades! HOHOHO. pro huh. from an E8 to A2! congratulate me please. :D still not satisfied with that grade though. actually, it's one mark away from A1! okay okay. i ought to be content with what i get.

another one is my english. from a horrible C5 in the past, i'm 1 mark away from my A! damn cool right. i actually scored 22/25 for summary which is so unbelievable. usually during class TAs, i can score like 13/25. that's my usual standard. HAHAHA. a great leap forward. (: i'm happy. but my paper 1 pulled me down! my essays were horribly done, pulled down my overall. sadded! ): that improvement is worth celebrating for, be thankful esther!

i think my L1R5 for prelims is gonna be 9781624976519764. HAHAHA. i predict i'll deprove from MYE. sigh sigh. :/ gotta put in 120% to do well for Os! have been playing quite a bit during sept hols which should be the last period of time i can havoc. i'm kinda sad actually. esther without fun is a cavewoman. HAHAHAHA! i can't think of anything better than that. i'm so gonna mug like siao till Os, don't be freaked out by me. scold me when you see me playing too much. (:

i shall post again another time when i feel like it. no promises that it'll be soon. so do wait up for the next post! :D continue tagging at my blog so that i know you guys miss me, then prolly i'll post earlier! (:

2008-08-25T23:57:00.004+08:00

a cute little caucasian girl whom we met on the train. (:

badly sunburnt! my skin hurts like mad now. :S but it was worth the fun! :D

beautiful sunset to end off the enjoyable day at sentosa. (:

2008-08-24T18:59:00.007+08:00

i went to the night safari for the first time in my whole entire life! don't laugh at me okay, many people haven't too. (: hehe.

cute little pony brought out for some private function. super cute right?? (:

these are the tix that we bought with some animal printings on it.

we didn't get to catch this show cos of the horrible drizzling weather which supposedly will cause the animals on show to fall sick. SIGH! damn wasted.

fatty bro and me! it's a rare photo cos we seldom take photos tgt. hehe. (:

started to camwhore cos we were bored while waiting for the tribal dance show to start.

some photos taken during the show.

don't ask me why there's so many fire blowing photos. HAHA!

partly cos i thought it was cool and i kept taking those shots only.

and with the fire, the photos taken are much clearer as compared to the dark dark ones as above.

actually, blowing fire made up more or less the whole show. HAHA!

2008-08-23T12:28:00.002+08:00

prelims are almost over and esther is ready to PLAY! hehe. i know many of you will strongly object to this cos the big fat Os are not over yet! but oh wells, everyone needs to take a break at points of time right? that sounds like an excuse, i know. but i'm totally depressed and demoralised by my performance for prelims. i tried to put in effort to do better for my prelims than my mye but apparently, its a total disappointment. sigh sigh sigh. i'll only be happy if i get less than 19 for L1R5. is that too much to demand for? :/

something to be happy about. my class will be having a class outing next monday at sentosa! hehe. i hope it'll be a success. the previous time was a total failure, only 7 people turned up i think. haha. next week will be a fun-filled week! only have chemistry paper 1 on monday and 3 1/2 days of hols! friday is a half day cos of teachers' day celebration. jealous? (: but annoyingly, i have 2 tuition next week cos that annoying teacher postponed it. gahh! however, i'm still going for a session of k next week! lalala. that's worth celebrating for. :D

okay. i'm so gonna study hard for Os during the sep hols. esther is gonna be a mugger!

2008-08-11T20:01:00.001+08:00

Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 13 people.
This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first.
No Cheating!

1. Yvonne
2. Jenalyn
3. Tard Jo
4. Julia
5. Rebecca
6. Kaiwen
7. Stacey
8. Mel
9. Sim (the bim)
10. Gin
11. Tay
12. Linying
13. My Brother

How did you meet 10? [Gin]
In my secondary school

What would you do if you had never met 2? [Jenalyn]
There won’t be any interesting stories for me to hear! (:

What would you do if 6 and 10 dated? [Kaiwen & Gin]
2 girls?? Oh my…

Have you ever seen 4 cry? [Julia]
Yupp.

Do you think 10 is cute? [Gin]
she’s too thick-skinned for any compliment.

How did you get to know 8? [Mel]
Through a classmate.

Would you ever go on a date with number 12? [Linying]
Of course! We’ll go shopping and sing at kbox!

What's 7's favorite color? [Stacey]
ORANGE.

What would you do if 6 confessed he/she loved you? [Kaiwen]
She don’t have to do that, I know she loves me. Haha! :D

Fact about 9: [Sim (the bim)]
She is super duper smart girl who doesn’t put her knowledge into good use. Haha! Therefore, she’s a bim. She’s super tall and thin and talks A LOT A LOT A LOT!

Who is 4 going out with? [Julia]
Nobody?

Who is number 5 to you? [Rebecca]
My youth group leader!

Would you ever live with 13? [My brother]
Of course, I’ve lived with him for 16 years.

Is 1 single? [Yvonne]
Good question. HAHA!

Where does 7 live? [Stacey]
Pasir Ris!

What do you think about 3? [Tard Jo]
She’s MAD and RETARDED of course.

What's the best thing about number 8? [Mel]
Her friend, Esther.

What do you like about number 11? [Tay]
She is a creative girl and is very nice to everybody. (:

Favorite memory with 2? [Jen]
Try counting 16 years worth of memories, that’ll be my answer.

Those whose names are up there are tagged to do this quiz unless he/she doesn't have a blog.

2008-08-09T22:59:00.006+08:00

march pass by the respective UGs

my school is conveniently located beside the expressway. check out that erp.

.yt.tay.gin.me.sim.

camwhoring in the toilet. (:

bim and me! :D

2008-08-06T16:00:00.000+08:00

2008-08-02T00:30:00.002+08:00

this week was a super unpleasant and rough-sailing one. hate it like hell.
1. made to sit right in front facing the class cos my friends and i were making too much noise during english time assignment.
2. form teacher spoke to the class in sarcasm over the ponning school issue.
3. other teachers kept picking on us during lessons.
4. form/chem teacher called up all my friends' parents for those who ponned chem remedial. (surprisingly she hasn't called up mine.)
5. frigging annoying classmate who doesn't know her limits in scolding people.

however, there's still things for me to thank God for! :D
1. i just came back from FOP! (: it was a blast.
2. e maths test results were surprisingly good though i didn't prepare much for it.
3. geography test on natural veg was good too. (:
4. i've got crazy friends in school which i can clique well with. (though we always get into hot soup on certain occasions.)

okay. though the bad things this week seem to be more than the good ones, i still wanna thank God for everything! :D it's definitely better to have at least 4 things to thank God for as compared to nothing. that's already worth thanking Him. (: anyway, this week was a torture. lessons were boring, monotonous, tiring, pretty much useless... can't think of anything else. rarrrh. i'm glad that weekend has come and i've got time to replenish my sleep! (: yay.

i'm tired, turning in soon. bye! (:

2008-08-02T00:24:00.000+08:00

冲动

很感激这城市拥挤的交通
让你我还能多相处几分钟
人潮中怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松不放松

忍不住想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我会有点寂寞
你给的幸福在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切我想要比谁都懂

我的心是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我想你的时间不够用
为什么平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我你改变我

忍不住想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我会有点寂寞
你给的幸福在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切我想要比谁都懂

你是情人还是朋友
还没勇气想得太多
你的世界如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落

忍不住想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我会有点寂寞
你给的幸福在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切我想要比谁都懂

2008-07-26T00:43:00.000+08:00

2008-07-22T18:58:00.002+08:00

HELLO! i'm blogging right after a long mugging of 3 hours. i can't believe i actually sat there and did serious work for 3 whole hours! so impressive. haha! hope i'll be able to do this everyday, that'll ensure my A1s. :D my record was 4 hours straight just before a geography test. cool eh? (: i know i'm definitely incomparable to some who are able to sit there and study the whole day, i'm not those who has such long attention spans.

i realised a sad sad thing ytd! i only can study what i'm in isolation for eg, like one person in my whole entire house. okay, i shall roughly describe how i study. usually i'll be the only one at home in the aftn in my whole entire house. i'll blast the aircon and the mp3 player and start doing work all by myself. sad eh? how i wished i could study in groups, it'll be so much fun-er!

ytd was racial harmony day and our school declared 1/2 day cos of the 4 national championships we won this year: table tennis, cross country, track & field and volleyball. cool right! (: haha. but HALF DAY only! so pathetic. i was expecting at least a full day holiday or something. it's damn spoiler to put on racial harmony day lah! you only get to wear the traditional costumes for like 2 hours plus? so lame can. but whatever, i still wore it. i wore a sari! :D haha. shall post the pics another time.

after school, me stace claud and manda went to city hall starbucks to study. i'm freakin in love with WHITE CHOCOLATE MOCCHA! :D hahaha. it's damn yummy. i was damn dumb ytd, i bought the medium sized one which cost only 50 cents cheaper than the large one and the difference was quite alot lah! zzz. i only realised after ordering. dumb right! but it was my first time there, so ya, something that i learnt. (:

all of us kept visiting the toilet cos it was damn cold inside starbucks plus it was raining outside. we'ld go in 2s: stace & me, manda and claud. half the time, me and stace will loiter around raffles city and start window shopping for like 15 minutes before returning. HAHA. but the session wasn't exactly productive for me. sigh. home is still the best for me! :D

school work is piling up though exams are nearing. i thought it should be the other way round right? PRELIMS ARE IN 20 DAYS TIME. i've yet to do serious mugging! help help help! :O

2008-07-18T23:16:00.002+08:00

i didn't go to school today! HOHOHO. :D so shiok can! i slept from 8pm to 1pm today, i.e. 15 hours. that's my record so far, what's yours? (: i was dead tired ytd after reaching home at 7pm. intended to take a short nap and continue doing my hmwk in the evening but apparently, i slept all the way till 11pm! got to my bed and continued sleeping till this morning.

was wondering whether i should attend school cos most of my hmwk is undone and i've yet to pack my bag. shall go if i wake up on time for school but i woke up only at 6.45am which i'll definitely be late! so, i didn't go in the end. in a way, if i had slept, it'll compensate my loss of sleep throughout the week.

it's a bad thing to sleep that long actually. my head was spinning like crazy when i woke up in the aftn. guess it's due to the irregular sleeping hours. should get used to sleeping short hours so that i'll have more time to mug in the night. (:

in the end, i went to little india to shop for racial harmony stuff. btw, my school's having HALF DAY on monday! :D yay. don't be jealous people. hehe. (:
shopped for earrings, bangles and stuff for our sari-s! hehe. first time wearing. sounds fun! i've been ponning school for the past years' racial harmony. either that or i wore school u on that day. damn spoilspot right? HAHA. i know. i wasn't so much into such events.

okay, today was super unproductive. though i didn't attend school today and had all the time in the world to complete my stuff, i spent most of my time SLEEPING to replenish my loss hours of sleep. i'm going to sleep now again. HAHA! i lead a pig life, seriously. better start exercising or i might just be fat enough to smash you flat! HAHA. spouting nonsense again whenever i'm tired. RARRRH!

goodnight eveybody. (:

2008-07-14T17:49:00.002+08:00

i think i lead a very tragic and suay life. firstly, i screwed up my laptop by overheating the motherboard at the beginning of the year. then, i lost my phone ytd, or rather, GAVE it to the thief who stole my handphone cos i left it at some easily stolen compartment in my bag. SIGH. i'm so deprived of electronic devices now! all i can use now is my brother's laptop/computer and watch tv. actually it's not that bad lah. haha. this means that i can hog on to the house phone cos it's gonna be my handphone in a way. HAHA. (:

actually, after this incident, i realised that my mum isn't as sadistic as i thought. (: initially, when i got home ytd, she scolded me like crazy. i was prepared for something worser but thankfully, it wasn't that bad. then, she added some sarcasm by saying that i donated it to the needy thief. haha! crazy mother of mine. why would i wanna donate my phone to a thief? at least i think money is more useful. she wanted to leave me phoneless for one week and see how it goes before she gets one new phone for me. like what the heck! but then, today, she called me to ask if i wanna go to tpy central to meet her so that i can check on my new phone! hehe. so, it's a blessing in disguise in a way.

HOWEVER, i still miss my phone badly! my favourite k800i which i maintained it so well that it's functioning well though i've gotten it for about 2 years already. (i know that model is pretty outdated by now) and my sesame street lanyard! and the bear bear on it that ms lim gave us last week. ): AHH! stupid thief. i miss my lanyard and bear bear more than my phone actually. but i spent around 480 bucks on it! my money just flew away like that! HEART ACHE AH. ):

today was quite a bad day. we were suppose to have geog test and mock bio paper today. geog was postponed! yay. (: but the BAD THING is that i selected geog to study instead of bio cos it's only 2 chps and bio has 20+ chps! everyone said i was crazy cos bio is much more impt. haha. but i'm lazy what, can't help it. hadda chiong bio during lessons, no choice. i really didn't touch anything on bio nor read anything abt it until today itself. but thank God that i revised the essay qns by chance and poof! it came out. (: at least i won't fail my essay, i hope. haha. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! :D

lessons were super duper draggy today, esp chem. it's impt to have selectively listening during chem, or else it's gonna be damn boring. i was more or less in a daze throughout the lesson except for parts of it. it was DOUBLE PERIOD some more, even worse. amazingly, whatever i heard was the main points of the lesson. HAHA. whenever she tries to elaborate something, she'll 越描越黑 and the whole class will be even more confused. and of course, confused me switched off and started stoning until the last part when she started talking sense. thankfully i wasn't paying attention during the part when she was talking gibberish which no one understood, waste my time!

less than 30 days to PRELIMs and i've yet to start mugging. am i dead or dead-er? i can't wait to get over the BIG FAT Os. :/

2008-07-09T22:37:00.002+08:00

wednesday is a short short day! i love it loads. school ends early at 1pm unlike the other days at 1.50pm. (: didn't have remedial cos ms ng didn't come to school! yay. *touch wood* i think she was on mc, not very nice to be happy over that, but whatever, YAY! :D

we have only 6 lessons today. BUT, 2 teachers were on MC, that makes it 4 lessons. 1 period taken up to do geography test, 3 lessons left. chinese and english periods are as good as free periods, left 1 proper lesson (maths). today was a super slacker day! hehe. i like i like. (:

i screwed geography test today. zzz. so annoying. it's not that i didn't study okay! i studied, but wasn't smart enough to spot qns. i sort of studied selectively. like who studies the entire topic that is tested? maybe some nerds or geeks will. haha! not me. (:

english lesson was damn funny. we were supposedly discussing abt personal recounts. then, our teacher got us to discuss cliche storylines so that we will avoid writing those. an example of cliche storyline would be channel 8 drama seriels. haha! he suddenly jumped to the show "Beach.Ball.Babes". he said how could the vballers fly all the way from NTU to Tiong Bahru, changing from their vball shirts to bikinis just to do the forfeit? there was no transfer of scenes. more of jumping scenes which makes the show look quite stupid. super true! our class had a good laugh over it.

since it was a short day, me sim gin tay and yt decided to catch a movie after school. the movie was 10 promises with my dog. it's quite a touching show. i shall explain what happened in the cinema. our dearest sim tay and gin cried like mad during the show. then my packet of tissue was passed to and fro a few times cos they didn't bring any. at the end of the show, the 3 of them had swollen eyes. haha! moreover they had to make their way home via public transport. so embarrassing! thankfully i didn't cry much. (: swollen eyes free!

it's not bad, but i expected more. haha. so it was a little disappointment i would say. but nonetheless, it's still a nicey show. (: for dog-lovers, i would encourage. hehe. but... tired me slept a teeny weeny bit during the movie. HAHAHA. i was tired lahhhh! not exactly my fault, the centre portion was a little draggy too. (:

i'm so glad that my mum and my bro is home now! my mum only came back at 10pm and my bro at 10.30pm. i was all alone from 7pm till 10pm! they didn't contact me or whatsoever. trying to act smart, i was thinking of all sorts of possibilities: mishap? rapture? HAHA. i know this is hilarious. :S

okay, i shall blog till here for now! ciaos. bye.

2008-07-05T20:01:00.005+08:00

ytd was Express Yourself Day in cedar. my impression of Express Yourself Day was just another ordinary school day but alas, it wasn't! it was a freaking MAD day. HAHA! :D i can't find a better word to describe it.

our class theme was SLUMBER PARTY which explains what i was wearing in the photo. everyone called me garfield ytd! so retardeddd. at first i thought that wearing pyjamas was quite stupid cos other cedarians wore super nice clothes! like dresses, shirt and shorts etc. but then, it wasn't that bad after all! cos my WHOLE CLASS wore pyjamas. (: hahaha.

everyone wasn't in the mood to study. i already felt like sleeping right from the start of the day, esp in pyjamas! i hardly paid attention during lessons. hehe. (: but i guess teachers knew that we weren't in the mood to study.

talking abt teachers, some of the female teachers wore cedar uniform whereas male teachers wore some secondary school uniforms to school! HAHA. assembly was darn funny. teachers were asked to go up the stage to dance and catwalk. the male teachers acted as "pai kia" which they don't even look like. -.- they looked sorta retarded. wakakakaka. :X

ly and i blatantly took photos in class DURING LESSONS. HAHA! when my teacher was writing something on the board, we quickly take a pic and continue doing our work. damn funny. thankfully she didn't find out, or else she might have confiscated it or something. phew. guess i'm pretty skilful in doing illegal things in class! (:

our class was the only class that put up a performance during assembly. damn hilarious! we took only abt 30 mins to prepare our item lah! goodness. but it wasn't that bad. (: i hid behind so ya, wasn't that unglam.

there was still chemistry remedial after that. super spoiler. we wanted to pon but it wasn't very nice. so we took the wksht and did in like 15 mins and left abruptly after checking our answers. so all in all, remedial only lasted for about 30mins. HAHA! pro right. :D

okay, i shan't continue blogging. i'm superrrrrrrrrrr lazy. that's all i shall blog. bye! (:

2008-07-01T20:16:00.002+08:00

i shall try to be hardworking and blog at least once a week. haha. so i think my posts will be quite lengthy and naggy, hope you guys don't mind. (: hahaha. i hope you guys will survive reading. i'll start blogging from saturday.

SATURDAY
okay. there was anshao committee retreat on saturday from 3pm to 9pm. went down at 1.30pm to do anshao room deco for zmds' farewell. was pretty discouraged abt it cos the 3 PIC(S) were me, bella and tard. but apparently, tard can't make it, bella will be late. this meant that i was to do the deco myself! i was seriously tempted to just leave it there and not do anything cos i lacked the inspiration to do anything.

but i really would like to thank God on that day! it started off with myself only. then, i asked xb to come down to accompany and he agreed. (but he didn't turn up in the end though. hahaha.) then julia, ah neh and jy smsed me in the morning. julia offered to help, ah neh was suppose to go down early to open the gate (thought it was opened when we went and he sorta made a wasted trip) and jy who offered to help me buy balloons for deco! :D YAY. so happy. then, there was more to come. many committee members came down much earlier than 3pm and helped me with the deco! YAY. thank God for everything. you people are just like God sent angels! (:

had 食字路口 for games during retreat. though the weather was a total torture and we had to rush to and fro the same places repeatedly, i'm sure everyone enjoyed it. :D hehe. the food that we were suppose to eat were not bad indeed! (: haha. thank you so much coordinators! i'm sure it wasn't an easy task to plan and racky the places in advance.

there was also a Bible Study session after that. learnt ALOT during the Bible Study as it was highly applicable for me. God really spoke to me through that short period of time and i am motivated to hang on in my posts though i'm not confident abt it yet. pray for me k? (:

went off after that. von and i went shopping at PS and we bought quite a few things. spent like 30 bucks in total that day. HAHA. :D had subway for dinner. she spent the night over at my house to complete zmds farewell gift. we didn't had a wink that night lah! did it for 9 consecutive hours till 7am. and we sneaked out at 4am to buy maggie mee cos we were super tired and hungry and thought that walking abt would perk us up. HAHA. thankfully my mum didn't discover us. phew. or else we'll seriously get it from her.

SUNDAY
we were half dead by the time we were suppose to prepare for church. we were early for the choir rehearsal! HAHA. amazingly. choir members were highly encouraged to talk crap from 7am onwards. but apparently, me and von have been crapping since the start of saturday morning. HAHA. so we've sorta 开声ed long ago.

the response of our 献诗 was GREAT. well done 天路客! :D it wasn't as bad as i thought. guess there wasn't much anxiety in me cos it isn't the first time that i'm 献诗-ing in front of the church, moreover they are people that we know, so what's there to be afraid? (: and we were sure that God was there to provide us with the strength we needed! praise the Lord. :D

zmds farewell followed. i've already predicted that i'll cry. GAHHHHH~ but it wasn't so embarrassing cos most of the girls cried too. we had a video presentation and 2 song presentations. one of the song was the guitar examination piece and the other one was our guess of his favourite song: 最珍贵的角落. the part that made me cry was when the note he wrote were being read out. AHHHH! i'm so gonna miss him loads. i wonder how anshao would be like in his absence. ): i hope 2 years will fly past soon so that he'll be back with us AS A PASTOR! :D all the best zmds! we will keep you in our prayers.

MONDAY
back to school, BORING. school's getting more and more boring! i can't stand it. thankfully bio re-test was postponed to next week. so i'm only left with chem SPA skill 3. thankfully i've got nice friends who were nice enough to teach me skill 3 cos i've not been paying attention in chem lessons. HAHA. that's so usual of me. my teacher's annoying and so is her voice. but she's nice lah. just that... i'm a bit biased against her cos she scolded me before! HAHA. not so much of prejudice now and neither can i afford it cos i want my A1 for chemistry!

monday was pretty slack. suppose to have bio remedials but was cancelled cos there was no venue available to house 2 classes. YAY! so me, sim, tay, gin and yt went to shop for PAJAMAS at kovan and hougang. okay, basically, the pajamas is for the Express Yourself Day this friday whereby all cedarians are allowed to wear anything to school, as in HOME CLOTHES. but since my class has decided to take part in the class competition, they've came up with the idea of PAJAMAS. zzz. quite dumb i thought cos if you don't have any, you've gotta buy. besides, people like me DON'T WEAR pajamas to sleep! so even if i buy it, i'll most prolly wear it for the first and the last time on friday. -.- but whatever that is, since it's my last year in cedar, i shall be supportive of class performances! that's if i feel like it of course. (: HAHA.

me and yt went crazy and talked crapped all the way. guess i was worn out due to the lack of sleep. but it was normal to me as i always do that in church. then the 3 of them dao-ed us lah! SO MEAN. :O but soon, tay was badly influenced too and the 3 of us went CRAZY! HAHA. i love being crazy.

TUESDAY
school was as boring as ever. HAHA. i'm so not gonna waste my time blogging abt school. anw, i went out with stace and mel after school today. met up with someone and had lunch at carls junior. did the HEAT REACTION on mel. she's damn funny and naive. she had no idea what me and stace were doing and she happily added all sorts of funny sauces tgt and her hand had to touch that mixture of sauces. i doubt many of you dunno what i'm talking abt, feel free to ask me to try it on you. (: HAHA! i bet you'll ENJOY and be AMAZED by it. (:

that's roughly what happened for the past few days. yupps. i think i left out quite alot of things but gahhhh, can't seem to rmb every tiny little detail that happened. and i don't wanna bore you all to death. HAHA. hope you all survived reading this post! ciaos. :D

2008-06-26T22:47:00.002+08:00

i'm getting super duper LAZY abt blogging. school has been super duper BORING and i've been sleeping during selective lessons ever since school reopened on monday. this is a RECORD for me. half the time i'll be copying notes and i'll just switch off and start nodding off. my table partner would wake me up and laugh at me. -.-

PE today was FUN! :D sec 4s are having archery as our PE module now. cool eh?? (: hehe. but my arm was trembling as i pull the bow. the annoying instructor made us hold in position for damn long plus pulling the bow lah! cos he wanted to check our pulling position. by the time we were asked to shoot at the target, we could no longer aim cos all our hands were trembling like crazy. HAHA.

and about holiday homework, it's still UNDONE. shit man. i thought my nicey teachers won't want them. HAHAHA. annoyingly and sadly, they are collecting this year! ): AHHH~ 2 chinese mock papers, 1 ss seq, 2 geog LDQs... i think that's all. how bad is this! someone please spare me the agony~~

our youth choir is performing this sunday at church! i'm starting to lose my voice already, the weather is doing me NO GOOD! ): and... i've been eating fried and spicy food. GAGA. i really hope i'll be well and fine on sunday! i'm sure we can do it 天路客s! :D

okay, guess that's all for this post. to all stalkers of my blog, please leave a tag! i seriously dunno whether are there people reading my posts. if there isn't, i shall stop blogging for quite a long period of time. (: ciaos everyone! bye.

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2008-06-10T10:19:00.008+08:00

awwww...

i can't upload the video. there's smth wrong with it. ask me for it if you wanna see. (:

2008-06-10T10:03:00.002+08:00

ROLLER BLADING WAS FUN! :D
though many things cropped up before we went to ecp, i still enjoyed it alot! (: thanks to my crazy bunch of church friends. hahaha. 6 of us went: me, my bro, tard ant, gy,zy and jy. the 4 of us ps-ed tard ant and jy cos tard ant was kinda noob at blading and it's quite weird to have the rest of us waiting for her. we'll most likely jam up the whole road. jy didn't blade, so he was supporting her. HAHA.

we were considerate enough to leave the two of them alone. HAHA! just kidding. i went around blading with 2 bags slinged over me can! so retarded. -.- cos i carried tard's bag for her and the rest of the guys' bags were with jy lah! poor him. he carried 2 bags plus his guitar. i think it's damn pro of him!

it was really fun throughout the 2 hours. bladed to one side of ecp and we headed back to the other side. we went to the slope to play! (: haha. zy and my bro went crazy and they decided to skate down backwards. i've got videos of them doing that, but i dunno how to upload! :S hahaha. so i shan't upload cos i'm lazy to learn. (:

it's a pity that ah neh didn't go. haha! the two noobs can blade tgt. (:

headed to parkway for dinner. tired esther was damn cranky at night. i'm so sorry people. i kept making comments abt where they suggested to eat. hehe. really picky. in the end, we had kfc! (: sat there for damn long and had a long cabal discussion plus other stuffs.

didn't feel like gg home even it was 9pm, so we went to PP's arcade intending to play. though it was open, they'd already stopped the card thingy, so we couldn't play. went there and just looked at the machines. haha! sounds stupid.

anyways, i doubt there'll be such outings so soon again! ): cos everyone's gonna have their exams and what not soon. sighhh. but at least, there's still eoy's hols to look forward too! :D that means that o levels is also approaching. GAHHHH~

i'm not suppose to be at home now actually. i was supposedly going to watch aviva badminton tournament today at the indoor stadium but things cropped up again. ._. tard ant overslept and nat is not feeling well! obviously i don't wanna go there by myself like a loner, so i've decided to skip it. kinda sad that it's right smack in the middle of church camp. wanted to buy the tix but it's kinda pointless cos i can only make it for the qualifying round and the finals. zzz.

i'll be going to batam for church camp tmr! :D YAY. i've been anticipating this day to come since 2 years ago. this sounds crazy right?? hahaha. :D i hope it'll be fun-er than the tioman one! (: rmb to sleep early tonight people!

i've got tuition later. that's a SAD SAD news. i HATE tuition and i HATE the teacher even more. he makes my life miserable! GRRR. most of you will know that he's annoying. haha! highly recommended tutor if you want to die of boredom. HAHA! i'm starting to talk nonsense already. i'm tired! shall go back and sleep since cabal's server is not working now! D:

2008-06-09T12:57:00.002+08:00

i'm back after 7 days of laziness! :D hahaha. my blog is successfully rotting. to me, blogging once a week is really very little as compared to my peak period which i can post up to 4 times a day! mad right. :S i find it quite impossible now! i've been playing cabal like mad, not doing any work and slacking my hols away. i feel the anxiety of o levels but i'm not doing anything abt it. hahaha. (: please smack me awake people. this girl is gonna fail if she continues this kinda life.

i'm going to roller blade at ecp later! :D HAHAHA. so happy. i love roller blading except for the fact that the weather's a little hot today... hmm. but i'm sure we'll still have FUN! ls, you weren't suppose to wake up early for work today! x(

anshao was pretty fun ytd. (: haha. alot of funny things happened in my group during 小组. quite sad that the number of people who came ytd was really little. 4 groups had to be merged to 3 groups. ): but anyway, we still enjoyed it. sam was really funny. hahaha.

it seems to me that choir sessions are getting shorter and shorter. wasn't it meant to be 1 hour?? how come it shortened till its only around 35 mins or so?? maybe that's why people use this phrase "time flies". haha. but time really FLIES. we're suppose to have our full dress rehearsal after 大堂 next week and we're performing the week after! goodness. i feel unprepared... sounds quite scary to perform in 大堂 though it's already my 2378762354th time! perhaps it's bcos the youth choir is a new thing. (: will definitely get used to it in the future! :D

wanted to fetch the mission trip people back from the train station but somehow or rather, they ended up at woodlands checkpoint. guess they got transport from the locals there. in the end, we stayed in church and waited for i dunno what reason. hahaha. kw was doing her work and the rest were talking and sleeping. i left shortly after that cos i had to visit my cousin in the hospital.

she wasn't caught in any accident or what, but rather, i got a new baby "niece"! :D fyi, i've already got 17 niece/newphews. (: cool right! but i feel old. many of them are abt my age but they are suppose to call me 表姑 or smth like that. eee! i don't like it.

church camp is coming in 2 days time! HAHAHAHAHA. so exciting. i hope it'll be a MAD one! :D quite sad that many anshao people cannot make it for the camp. it'll definitely be fun-er with more anshao people around! what a pity. :/ nevertheless, we can still enjoy as a fellowship every sunday right?? :D

okay. i'm running out of things to blog about. i'll try to blog abt church camp if i'm hardworking enough. (: hahaha. ciaos!

2008-06-01T23:03:00.007+08:00

this was our lunch today. haha! it became like that thanks to zan. (: i didn't eat it in the end cos it was super salty! did the prices of salt drop to dirt cheap or smth?? i bet the cook added a whole box per packet lah! it's saltier than potato chips, so ya, you should be able to imagine the saltiness...

i feel quite bad today. wasn't really paying attention during prayer march and sermon. oh wells. that's just the on and off thing in me. it's like i'm only paying attention to sermons on alternate weeks! weird huh. but i paid attention during sunday school and choir okay! (:

the attendance for choir today was speechless. only 8 people attended lah! but it was quite productive as compared to the previous weeks cos of the small group. NONE of the tenor guys were present! i jumped section to help tard cos she was left alone after kw left to be the pianist. haha. poor her. wouldn't it be cool if i belonged to both sections?? haha! that'll be pretty crazy i guess. :S

a big group of us stayed back to study in church. it was damn crazy lah! a study session which is full of nonsensical crap. haha. i like! (: i hope we'll be able to get a meeting room in the future cos the table upstairs is really small for us!

kw is the perfect nanny! she morning calls many people on sunday mornings, chases people to do work whenever they digress, teaches me and jo whenever we have problems with work and many more! haha. perfect mother for her future kids. (:

that was roughly my day. haha. (: i shan't bore you people to death with my naggy post. tada! :D i'll blog again soon.

2008-06-01T21:59:00.002+08:00

The Stand
by Hillsong United

You stood before creation
Eternity within Your hand
You spoke the earth into motion
My soul now to stand

You stood before my failure
Carried the Cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I'll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all

So I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours

2008-05-30T22:42:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling emo now. guess it's bcos the mission trip people are leaving tmr. i'm really sad that i can't go this year! thought i was disciplined enough to reject going right from the start but my decision kinda wavered when i received the news that pauline couldn't make it for the trip and when von asked me whether i could join them cos of the shortage in manpower. sigh. i knew right from the start that it's impossible to go this year and i was already lucky enough that my mum allowed me to join church camp cos of the big fat Os. can't life just do away with examinations? why is our society so achievement-based? i hate this. besides, more than 90% of what you've studied previously in primary to tertiary schools are very useless. i don't see how you can apply mole and titration into our daily lives. ._. if you have any idea how to, please impress me with your wisdom.

yvonne, i'm so gonna miss you loads! no crabby online conversations, no webcaming, no online shopping, and many many more things! sigh. don't miss me too much k! concentrate on your work there. (: i'm sure 8 days will fly like a wind. i hope... and jiayou to all the people who are going for the mission trip! zhongmin daoshi, pastor kelly, cuiwen, minghui, junyan, yvonne, ah neh and darrell. (:

holidays has been packed like i dunno what! i'm trying to do 1 mock paper a day which is quite crazy for me cos i hardly touch any mock papers that my teacher give me! the most i did within a month was 3 mock papers. haha. (: slackerbutt huh. i know. that 3 wasn't that torturous cos it was all maths. i like maths, so it's not as bad to do smth that you like. i've got like more than 10 sets of mock papers consisting of english, chinese, maths, chem, bio! oh gosh. i doubt i'll ever finish it. i'm getting freaking stressed over this dumb o levels! AHHH~~~ i feel like pulling all my hair out. my motivation to study is there, but there's no action! HAHA. so it's kinda useless...

i really hope i won't screw up my exams as it'll sorta predict my future. psle is seriously crap. its just an exam which will predict whether you'll receive good teachers or not for your secondary school education. if you're suay enough to enter a good school with bad teachers, all i can say is good luck. i shall save that for myself.

come to think of it, life is kinda boring. all you do is study for 2 whole decades and work for let's say 5 decades and then you'll grow old and die. how monotonous. i'm sure the leisure time that we can afford is barely 1 decade in your whole entire life. what a sad and tragic life we lead huh. therefore, we should enjoy whatever we have all the time so that you won't regret it in the future! like me, i ponned extra lesson today! HAHA. knowing that it's gonna be unproductive, i stayed at home to sleep more instead. (: at least it's smth much more meaningful than sitting in the theatrette for 2 whole hours and stoning at the same time. waste of transport fee and my time!

okay. i shall update whatever i feel like updating. i'm getting lazier to blog cos my life has been and is gonna be BORING; eat. sleep. study. EVERYDAY!

2008-05-20T22:41:00.002+08:00

i've not blogged for about one whole week. getting really lazy to update, partly it's bcos my life hasn't been extremely exiting which is killing my interest to blog. haha. moreover my sadistic teachers has dumped us with ALOT of work to do. so i suppose work comes before blogging right?? haha. (: hope you all can understand.

anyway, school has been back to normal teaching days. pretty monotonous. it's just like the days before MYEs. nothing much. had english oral today. realised that i'm a potential conwoman. HAHA. shall tell you guys abt it. cos the conversation part usually requires some real life experience to make it sound real, but the question that came out was something that i hadn't encountered before. so, i acted as though smth relevant to the question had happened before and starting crapping on and on and on. sounded logical to me though. HAHA. the teacher laughed too. so i suppose i'm really talented in this area! LOL. :D

i don't doubt my crapping skills. even my ss/hist teacher said that our class has that talent to do so. she said if we were to use our crapping skills wisely, we could have scored much more than what we'd scored for MYE. HAHA. and she added that crapping skill is a TALENT. i therefore conclude that i'm TALENTED! :D

this is crap. -.-

anyway, june holidays is NEXT WEEK! YAY. :D the words "SCHOOL HOLIDAYS" are so pleasing to my ears. (: but it seems like it isn't gonna be an enjoyable one. week one and four of my holidays are gonna be filled with extended maths and science lessons! how pathetic. that leaves us with only 2 weeks of holidays! but at least i'm doing smth productive during the holidays to brush up on my studies. without the extended curriculum, i suppose i'll most prolly spend the whole holiday playing and going CRAZY to loosen a bit after all the MYE stress and trauma. HAHA! don't i sound crazy? :S

tmr's timetable is CRAP. PE, Maths, Geography, Recess, Chinese and TOP. only Maths and Geography is impt. my Chinese teacher is absent from school the whole week. PE is obviously crap. and TOP is used to do some dumb survey. goodness. what a waste of time to attend school. so i suppose you people are able to predict what am i gonna do tmr. :D you'll most likely know if you know me well.

friendster is getting fReAkY! there have been random people adding me EVERY SINGLE DAY. both guys and girls, don't get the wrong idea. it's really ONE A DAY can! damn shocking. not as though i put up twit photos to attract guys or smth. -.- my friendster account has been stagnant for a month or so and now, there's like a adding friend trend here in my account! not that i'm against them but those people who added me are relatively WEIRD. :S

okay okay. shan't bore you readers to death. hehe. (: sorry for the really irregular updates. i'll try to be more hardworking!

2008-05-14T20:45:00.002+08:00

okay. this week is the suckiest week of my life. but despite those, i'm contented that it was also fun-filled! :D many crazy things happened. let me recall slowly so that i won't make this post a brief and boring one! (:

ytd and today were BAD BAD BAD! got back MYE results and they were like... !@#$%!@$#@$@. it's worse than crap. but at least i improved for most of my subjects. haha. my aim was to get more Bs rather than Cs and i did it! only got 2Cs instead of 5 last year. HAHA. but i got an E8 for chem! my tutor is so gonna skin me alive. it deproved by 4 grades after getting tuition. cool huh. i guess that fault doesn't lie in him, it's more of our teachers in school which are really stingy with marks! grrr. it's the FIRST time i ever failed a subject in a major exam. sigh. the consoling things about it is that majority of my class failed too. cool. and that applies to other classes as well.

my L1R5 is like 22! can't even get into a darn JC. annoying! but at least still can make it into an ITE. HAHA! there goes my dream of getting into the top 5 JCs. hopefully it'll not be a dream forever but rather, REALITY.

while waiting outside the theatrette, we did something damn horrible. my classmates and i were on the third level waiting to enter the theatrette for lessons and guess what they did? they sprayed water on those sec ones that were right below us taking class photo! HAHA. obviously we were cautious enough to wait till their teacher left. hehe. they sprayed not only once okay! HAHA. but it was FUN, and evil of course. doubt the person who got wet by us had any fun at all. HAHA. but that's the way of life, it all depends on which role you were playing at that point of time, either one is bound to be at a disadvantage. and it so happened that we were the advantageous one. HAHA. so we don't care! x)

attended trng after that. gosh. i'm really getting FAT and UNFIT! almost died doing footwork lah. the worst thing is that so little people came which meant more courts available to do footwork! it was a battle between physical and mental. TORTURING! but i'm glad that i did everything. was on the verge of telling my coach that i don't wanna do but thankfully i didn't do it. i'ld have regret i suppose. shan't let my laziness get hold of me! even did PT which was quite okay. did only suicide. (: yupps. i feel lighter! HAHA.

and my skills are all back to square one! oh my. gotta train for a period of time again before everything is back in place. i'm so lazy... my stamina is also GONE! ahhh~ my leg has a humongous BLISTER! ouch ouch. it looks damn GROSS lah. shall post the photo if i feel like it. yucks. even i feel disgusted by my own leg! eeee...

school's gonna be back to normal lessons tmr! sigh. BORING! hope i won't be bore to death in class! school holidays are arriving real soon in 2 weeks time. HAHAHA. love it. the word HOLIDAY is such a pleasant-hearing word to my ear. can't wait for it to come! (: